stolenagenda

2009-06-28T22:57:00.003-04:00

what a beautiful view,
if you were never aware of what was around you

ahahh, word to your mothers.
long time no post.
New apartment, and summer!
um, i still am not totally arranged in my room.
the apartment has cement walls, so i have yet to figure out how to post things..
xbox 360 though, elite. it's fuckin ballin.
Me and trish have been visiting the pool, and the sauna in my building
pretty good times!! but i got a HUGE fuckign sun burn :|
umm.
i hev to go to marys next year
i'm actually fucking pumped as shit.!
oou.
hang outs with taylor,
gewwwd.
^-^ !!!!
This is where i say something about how much i like, or dislike spending tiem with him
in a passive-aggressive way to admit that i hate him.. right?
well. He is fun :)

i decided that i need a new hobby to fill my time, especially for the next few weeks.
erica has decided to continue to scrap book
until time comes agian that she can game with taylor
1) his xbox is broken
2) he does not have cod5
3) my live membership runs out on the first...

On the 23, me and connor are going to niagara falls to IHOP and clifton hills.
i can't fucking wait.
next, i need a new tv, so i can pimp my room.
tv, and a new table, for my xbox, then i can have a reasonable-looking trap for taylor to want ot walk into.
then i will drop the cage, and capture him :)

I'd like to mention some RIP's to mj, and BILLY MAYS(L)
fml...

(o, p.s. krystie: YOUR WELCOME)

2009-05-14T06:57:00.004-04:00

i'll always be kezia so long as any hope remains

alright! holy SHIT this is my last..full day in my house :(
i'm up right now, have been since six, just walking around it
the weather is gross, but i'm inside, so that's alright for now.
i got paid 235$, and i'm hoping that i will find everything i need for cheap
(for now, i only need drapes) because i'm planning on an xbox elite ASAP :)
i'm so excited for it. anyway,
tonight will be the first time, in about a week that me and adam will hang out
only for a few hours, then i'm going to visit my new apartment.
apparently at 4:00pm the dudes buying the house are coming back for a visit
(thats soo stupid)
so i've got to get all my stuff together.
i've got most of my clothes packed, but my bedding and stuff is still all loose :(
i'm really obsessed with this band, The Acacia Strain
i'm not even really sure why.
anyway, this is a note to my future self, to have that xbox for the 28th.
i had a good night at work yesterday, i had some really fun times so i hope thats what it will be like on sunday.
anyway, i've got to get going
i'll definitely post later.
Shit!
okay wait, so my phone ran out of text messages, eight days early,
and i won't have internet connection until friday night
so i guess i'll write a journal entry, scan it, and post it :P
bye !

2009-05-09T08:59:00.002-04:00

you're the only one i need, i'm tired and i'm cold and i want to go to bed
but theres no one here to tuck me in, so the shotgun will instead.

Oooookay! Haven't posted in MONTHS.
but i think it's about time.
me and adam were on and off for a while, even though it was never really back on.
disillusion killed me.
i was really ready for the rest of my life - but i s'pose it was unfair of me to ask that of him.
so i've ached and cried and sobbed, but that's alright.
i'm done now :)

I've got HUGE isu's due, which SUCKS.
i finally brought my binder home for the weekend, which means i should get something done.
In anthropology i've got to finish my surveys, which i'm actually quite far on (and now that i switched to elder abuse, rather than POLYGAMY my mom isn't too thick headed to help)
in english we've got our ISU essay, which was assigned in february, which would be pieced together in weeks time, but by the time we were supposed to have that final boost, our teacher broke her foot - so she's been out for a month, and they're due wednesday.
we're moving friday, which will be heart wrenching.
i've known about this date since April 13th, but i still havent done anything.
i'm going to start washing, and packing clothes i wont need for the week
(if i hang out with anyone, sorry, it's gotta be in my school or work uniform :D)

i work tomorrow from nine thirty till six, so i'm going to have a pretty big paycheque this week
perfect for decorating my new room :)
i was looking into stuff from ikea
i have like, an 80 dollar order to redo my whole room
but i can't get out to burlington, and they don't sell what i want online :@@@@@.

yesterday was almost the best day of my life, to be completely honest.
i was never alone for a second.
eeer, except for lunch

anyway!
Today should be good, the weather isn't soo nice, which will convince me to stay in and pack my stuff :)
ttyl.

2009-01-30T22:57:00.002-05:00

no one ever said that hope would be so beautiful
no one ever said i'd have to pull the trigger on her

Alright, so today was actually eventful enough to write a fuckign blog.
exams were good, but the week before, opa died, so i was gone for the first two exam days
i got back, got tonnes of alcohol - wrote exams,
i've been off since tuesday, which is nice.
and for the past two days, i've been waking up at eight, to be ready for ten, to bus to adams house, waiting for connecting busses, and remembering that i forgot breakfast, several times.
it was smoothly yesterday,
adam even gave me his house key, incase he wasn't awake yet.
but today, was a different story.
i was considering taking the later bus, thinking "he won't mind if i get there at twelve instead of eleven"
and my foot hurt - really bad. as it has for the past long while.
i hurt it at work, so i've beent aking tylenol threes nonstop.
i took two on the bus there, and realized i had nothign to drink except scalding hot coffee - and a bottle of pure ethanol.
so i just swallow really hard.
i took the normal bus, and get there at eleven.
pounding on the door, throwing snowballs at his bedroom window.
i looked in his door, and noticed his shoes weren't there.
obviously something horrible.
i get really fucking mad, after a half hour of waiting, and decide to start writing a note
"I'm considering homicide you emo fuck"
it goes on to say how i waited so fucking long,
and i had no paper - of course, so i wrote it on the inside of my gum package.
i put the note inside the book i was to give to him to start reading.
but it didn't fit in his mailbox, so i put it in between his door, and the screen door, and left.
on my way to the bus stop i wrote on his facebook wall via cellphone somethign like
"I WILL BE AT THE BUS STOP UNTIL 12 (it was 11:30), IF YOU LEARN HOW TO TALK BY THEN, FEEL FREE TO TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON"
but of course, facebook mobile cut the message off, and updated my status to "he fuck is going on" or some shit.
i was so fucking mad. and walk back to the bus stop, it wouldnt come for a nothe rhalf hour, and the second i get there, i get splashed by two cars consecutively.
i start bauling my eyes out harder than i was on the way up the street, and get incredibly angry for the next while.
adam messages me back "MY ALARM DIDNT GO OFF AT THE TIME I WANTED IT TO, OS I WAS LATE! I WILL BE THERE BY 12" stupid fucking shit.
great.
he went out last night,
didn't tell me that.
he wasn't there this morning
didn't tell me that.
i message him saying "FUCK OFF. I"M GOING HOME, I'M NOT WAITING FOR YOU"
then i realize i'm hungry, and have a limited money source for the next while
"i need froot loops, i'll be waiting on your porch"
i trudge to his house, and get there around quarter to 12.
so i sit on his porch, hunched over the snowy steps and continue to baul my eyes out.
around 12, (i had my phone under my arms, facing up)
i hear "YEA, YEA JOSH?"
and i reluctantly turn around,
it's some fucking emo kid.
i sit up, and introduce myself.
it's adams fuckign friend,
and adam didn't tell me, or the kid that either of would be here - or that he wouldn't be here.
adams on his way to his own house, with this josh kid
while me and this kid, frank catch up.
we try to break into adams house.
he tells me how unwelcome i am, but how he "understands" and shit.
whatever.
adam finally shows up,
i'm soaked from head to toe,
hair all curled (after rigorous straightening) from the snow
and makeup running down my face from crying.
we get in his house, and some random kid shows up, adam talks to us all,
his two friends, josh, and frank go downstairs - whil ethe random that showed up (elton) me and adam are still there.
i go upstairs after the elton kid says "i should leave"
i decide to go on adams computer,
and he comes up by the time i realize i need th epassword.
his friends need something printed off before they can start everything,
so adam signs me in, gets me froot loops and they frig off.
i'm upstairs, in pain still
so i go ot my bag in adams room
find three t3's,
and no water.
so i take a swig of the pure ethanol.
my mouth starts burning, so i run downstairs to the kitchen, and take a drink of water.
adams in the shower at this point, and i go into his bed, and take a nap.
i am lulled to sleep by SAY HI TO YOUR MOM on repeat playing on my ipod from the table across the room, and the loud amps a floor below me.

i wake up three hours later, pretty drunk, but feeling good. woke up with my socks on the ground, so i was kind of weirded out.
after all that it was good.
adams mom bought us wendys and shit, we watched the game show network, and go to adams grammas house.
we all watch stand up - while i marvelled in adams seniors beauty.
fuck his dad is a babe.

2009-01-14T13:13:00.002-05:00

turn the lights off. i don't wanna see myself doing this.
i just want to love you

today i got off of school :)
i got to sleep in, go to the dentist, all of that!
i hate dentistry though, i am scared of the god forsaken root canal.
what the fuck :(

anyway.! i got to this new place in wow a bit ago
and ever since i'm scared to play, ebcause i don't want to die :P
hayden leveled a character to match mine, so we can quest together :)
i guess we haven't been on too much together, so thats why we haven't played.

i got a whol ebunch of vitamin supplements and stuff,
i guess i'mg oing ot be healthier.
meh.

exams coming up, i have to culminatings due friday, haven't started either
and i have a short story due monday - i asked for an extension :)
i guess i will get started on one of those soon, i'm too excited about all the new music i'm listening to now,
i finally downloaded new music for my ipod
and last.fm is my life
there is a link to my page on my blog, under the link section or whatever
i'm absolutely in love with it:)
oh
and i got paid 450$ on new years
spent it all in a week
and since then, i've been bumming money off of friends, because i didnt have any
turns out we got paid since then, two week sin a row :D
so i have 130$
i really want to see
THE BOY IN STRIPED PAJAMAS.
its playing until thursday everynight at the princess
i will go alone if i cant find anyone to accompany me.

2008-12-25T12:41:00.002-05:00

there she goes again, whispering in my ear.
sometimes I think I hear her say I'm going to die.

Alright! Merry Christmas.
I haven't updated in forever, but I started reading
THE HEROINE DIARIES
by nikki sixx. which i recieved from hayden for christmas - and i realized how important it is to keep a log of my past, err. rather - my present.
"i'm so scared your world is going to change without me"
i've been so good this past while
i don't remmeber if i posted since i was really bad
but i got so horrible
and then i got really good
and now i'm back down again
i'm not quite sure what it is i need - but it might have to do with the fact i've worked so fucking much.
i can't even believe this week - this horrible and dreaded week of a billion hours of work straight has been.
it felt like yesterday i looked at my small sheet of paper that had my hours on it -
and almost crying because i realized how shitty the next week would be
it's almost over and i'm so happy.
i feel so fucking empty though.
i want to sleep - i just want to be knocked out for hours
i want to be out until i have something i need to do.
last night i was drenched from head to toe and was splashed by oncoming traffic about a hundred times.
i finally got home - to find my mother let off of work early
and to find out that she had been home and tried to pick me up
that entire hour and a half of trying to get home felt like a dream
mixed with tears, mud, and slush i felt dead
i dont know what to do to feeeeel.

i want to take a bath
but i dun fit :(
i think i just might though,
i'm not sure
i need a massage

yesterday my dad went for his first big cancer intervenus thing
and he says he feels 10000x better
i'm so happy to see him smile.
tomorrow a hwole bunch of family is coming down
and i work 1-6 :c
time and a half though
i'm gonna get paid like a fat hoe.
im so fuckign pumped for this paycheque
i'm scared it's not gonna be that big.
but it feels like it should be!! lmao
i just calculated it
it should be around 350$
OFDKGHFDKGJDHF
plus stat holiday
im so pummmmmmmmmped

tonight it hink im going ot trishes christmas :)
i gotta shower bai

2008-12-08T14:24:00.002-05:00

and i'm afraid to sleep, because of what haunts me;
such as living with the uncertainty, that i'll never find the words to say
which would completely explain, just how i'm breaking down.

I haven't even really considered updating my blog
but i had to, when i saw this.
Compare People - the application on facebook
i got the question "Who is more likely to succeed"
there was a picture of a guy hitting a bong, and a picture of a girl's physics 100% test.

guess who i voted for.

haha anyway
i decided i should start up a secret santa at work!
and i got one girl to back me
i started a group on facebook - and as far as it looks, it'll be pretty good
even if people dont want to participate, i'm still going to buy small gifts ^-^
this christmas break is going to be so hectic.

but i'm happy i have the situation i do,
it's been slow, but i'm healing

BTW I THOT I SHOULD SHARE THIS:
And it took a long time until I came clean with myself, I'd grown clean out of love with my lover.

i rofl'd pretty hard. :D

2008-12-02T15:35:00.002-05:00

Give me the go-ahead and I'll undress myself for you,
if you're at all interested.

okay so today the grade eights from st. pauls came by
mr. hutfluss (grade eight teacher) is fuckign skinny as hell
it was freightening!
today was pretty bad
not gonna lie.
i dont work all week
so i have to clean
tongiht is a film with alex
and i have no money at all. fawxxorz.
i rekindled a friendship i had a longs tiem ago.

and i think its turned out pretty good.
i had a crazy ass dream last night
sotyr taylaura.

2008-11-29T20:33:00.001-05:00

saved my soul from certain death,
though my body did not survive.

alright haven't posted in a long ass tiem, as per usual
but i thought it important to post today
not only because i wanted to change my msn name, and not lose the quote
but to mark the date my house went up for sale.
two weeks from now, i will be having an open house
:(
ya
i am trained on courtesy at work now :)
but :( @ my special closet being painted

2008-11-07T09:20:00.002-05:00

I can hear as you tap on your jar
I am listening to hear where you are

alright, i havent posted in a hell of a long time
because its effing hard to want to. siiiince like.. october 3 LOOOL
okay so, i dont evenrememebr anything that happened from then, till the model un trip.
except lots of shopping - introduction to sephora, and my IPOD TOUCH

trent was a CRAZY experience. so many good times
and so much drinking
the next week back - i dont remember anything until halloween
which was an awful night
d+d at jess's, ben stager played with us (after tracking him down)
and then we called it quits at 7

i had the biggets tummy ache ever and i wound up taking gravol and pepto bismol and it was all better.
went to alexes
and crawled out of bed to go to rocky horror
we wound up getting out
calling a cab for an hour and a half
then nothign happened
we walked from waterloo to kitchener
and at 3:45 am a taxi finally came for us
i went home , thought i lost my ipod
etc.
called in sick to work
went to doctors
have an infection from all the drinking i did in trent
LOL
k
so after that, idk a lot

monday i got my mac brushes from klearrah
tuesday i got my 88 palette from learrah
this past wednesday
me and alex went to see
I SERVED THE KING OF ENGLAND
such a good movie
"nieroozoomyem - ewww" :D

then thursday me and trish went to get our nails done
me and kryst went to crabby joes doe dinner
cabbed home..
today i cancelled plans with krystian in the morning
for a lovely breakfast with my mother - in our pajamas
i'm going to get a hair cut soon
then off ot see learrah to the mall
and then to the movies - then to meet up with krystian later.
tomorrow will be huge
i guess i'll post those plans when they are more current

2008-10-03T15:18:00.002-04:00

where do bad folks go when they die?
they dont go to heaven where the angels fly

alright! holy FUCK.
last time i posted, blah blah, then there was a HUGE ASS PARTY AT MARYS
LMFAO
BRENDAN WAS DRUNK AS FUCK
LEO + ME
LMFAOOOO HAHAHAHA
I HIT MY HEAD AND CRIED
LMFAO
i worked at some point that weekend,
blah blah i dont
lots of stuff happened
i got my work uniform
i accidentally got five hours of work, rofl :)
taxi'd home
saw Choke with alex
tonight is nick and norahs infinite playlist
so i'm waiting for krystian to coem home - worrying he has already made plans tonight after my misjudgement
i havent seen trish in a long time :(
i am hungry for junk food.
i feel really bad right now :O
Hmmmmmmm.

krystians not home yet
this is bad for me.
why do people have to have lives outside of me?

2008-09-23T22:05:00.001-04:00

the only way a man will keep the woman in his hands
is to break apart her heart

not much has happened, other than me getting my doll from parenting clas.s
so many people on the street thoght it was real, and i've lost my babies hat somewhere, i lost it first on the street, and now its completely gone. fuck.
anyway, me and trish went to pita factory, and it cried, then it cried on the bus to th emall, then it cried on th ebus home, then it cried while i was downstairsdoing laundry.
i'm sos careed to do anything now.
this weekend will be good.
last weekend, mary had a crazy party, hell yeah.
this thursday, party at marys,
friday, hang with learrah and then alexs,
saturday, i come home
sunday i work.

i've go tmoney pretty much figured out,, and i think i can get everything handled, have my spirit wear, yoga mat, zune, and trip paid for all in time. i'm so excited.

2008-09-21T11:20:00.000-04:00

i csn lead a nation with a micrphone
i can end the planet in a holocAAAUST

i am too tired

2008-09-18T06:38:00.002-04:00

the saddest thing in the world is realizing that the person you are talking to,
is far more alive then you ever will be.

alright, eysterday was good! dentist, spin class, and a core class.
i have six more days to go to columbia lake for free.
model un was fun :)
i am exciteed!
i cant wait for the trip to trent
i hope it'll be fun.
we get wendy's for breakfast one day :|

(LMAO!!! Wendy's or mcdonalds, and mcds actually has breakfast :D:D:D)
i hope me and alex can find a market or soemthign to go to.
i hope todya goes smooth. i cant remember if anything is supposed to be happening.
my wow account expires in a week or so. so i am tres sad.
and i havent seen krystian in a while.
adios.

2008-09-14T11:23:00.002-04:00

i got your picture, i'm coming with you
dear maria, count me in

alright, so i am definitely not going to recap all the things that happened to em sinc emy last post (as i nromally do) because of the huge gap inbetween posts.
i specifically remember thinking "damn it, cool shit happened today, and i'm going to forge tit, i should make a blog post - naww, i'll remembER"
and now i totally dont remember.
like, okay
me and alex broke up (damn it)
we're still friends :D
model un looks really fun,
yoga is really fun.
umm, im not sure abou tanything else though.
i cant wait for most of these things to happen.
i booked off days at work for the model un trip.
i have zero scheduled hours for the next two weeks, so i suppose i am desperate until then.
i found abunch of new bands i like, and my WoW account expires in two weeks.
on the 28th of september.
apparently around that time, we're putting the house up for sale.
we got new windows recently, mom repainted the bathroom - from the horrible colour we had it as before.
we're going to work on the kitchen soon, i suppose.
i was really happy last thujrsday when i saw i got paid a whole bunch, and i owe my parents 180$. and trisha 40$ now
(my mom gave trish 100$ that i owed her "better erica owes me then you")
so yeah,
i want to buy a laptop, i really want it by my birthday,
but realistically, i will probably get it around christmas,
and it might even be smart to get it boxing day?
but dont they take off warranties and stuff for sale items?
i dont know.
anyway, the computer i want is 1600.
straight up, i want it. its not even lik e"I like it, i will get this though"

i dont want to settle for buying this, at al. but i want an mp3 player first.
krystian pleaded with me, convinced me, and suggested zuma media players.
so i suppose i will spend around 260$ for the 80gb i want.
i am not sure, as i scramble for last minute plans for my brithday, its already october, and finding patricias birthday present aswell is screwed up.
i have around 40$ in my bank account, and i need 18$ to pay for my yoga mat.
then it wil be aorund 20$ for the yoga hoodie spirit wear,
then i want the 12$ model un hoodie, then the 10$ track pants.
there is a 4$ tshirt, which i think i might aswell get - i will probably find a thin hoodie to wear under it for spirit wear days.

on that note, i need to go to the doctor aswell.
i have a dentist appointment soon,
god damn, why can ttheir offices be open after school?
i HATE missing school :(
i think i have a test that day too!!
lmao in math.
alright, brb break fast :)

gwah
um
idk what else, i gotta go to work though::)
au revoir

2008-09-03T15:43:00.003-04:00

i'll be your doctor, i'll be your cure
i'll be your medicine and more - you can rest assured, i'll be your doctor.

Bwaaaaaah! schooool suxxorz.

me and trish are going to mcdonalds, i com eback later

2008-09-02T09:33:00.003-04:00

i was certain that the season could be held between my arm
just as summer's hold is fleeting, i was here - but now i'm gone.

YEAAA FIRST DAY OF SCHOOOOL
ORflmfao
aksfndkjshfdkjshfdkjs
so much has happened
new gucci purse
trisha bought it for me
lmfao
um
holy water!
ummm.
schoool!!!!!
krystian and me went swimming!
uh
i love worldf of warcraft
im hurrying, btw.
last minutes of summer :(

SDKJFHDKJSFHDKJSHFDKJSHFDKJSHF
SO LONG, SO LONG, SO LONG, SOOO LONGGGG.

i love dashboard :)

yaaaa.
Nigggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggz

KJDHSFKJDHSkfjds
I love you.

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krystie is getting me from school - then we go to fg, then get trish, then go to smh.

2008-08-31T00:21:00.003-04:00

he whispered
"this means i love you"

alright, havent posted in EVER, woaaaaaaah!!
so much! so much work! and lots of flowers, catch-ups.
lots of planning, etc :)

ttttttttired much :(

<3333
i bought wow, and i spent my whole first pay cheque.
i need to get 20$ for tomorrow, for trisha
(wooooops! i spent all her cash)
lmfao

Hmm :)
i am sleepy.
krystian should be home in twenty minutes, but i might be in bed by then! shit!

2008-08-25T10:42:00.002-04:00

if you were with me tonight
i'd sing to you, just one more time

ya!soo i haven't posted in a while.
before i post, i'm always like "Nothing happened since the last post"
but thats always a lie, ebcause i always wait SO LONG then have HUGE posts.
bhhaha
saturday night was my second day on till, for two or three hours.
i get so sad when my shift is over :p
<3
krystian picked me up from work saturday
guys running into zehrs JUST BEFORE it closed
"IIIIIII NEEEEEEEEEEEEEED FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD"
i laughed SO HARD! :)

me and krygy bussed home, and he deliberately missed his bus.

;)

i am addicted to wow, but i suck, so whatev!
uhhhh :)
sunday! WOOOO! I FINISHED MY TRAINING:)
i got a cute little apple on my name tag! i am teh 1337 r0xx0rz.
today is registration
krystie is coming!
i need to shower still, etc!

sooo,
ttyl :)

PS ALECX GETS BACK TODAYYYYYYY! :O

2008-08-22T22:41:00.002-04:00

you never call me when you're sober
you only want it cause its over

alright, first day of work ON TILL!!!
i get to work, and we go over native status cards,
etc. etc.
good times :)
after break - we practise some scanning, and its time to go on till!
omfg,
so from 8:15-9:30 i was on the express lane
i was crying at first.
and i was trembling.
soo stressed out omg

but i eventually became really happy!
i got on a huge natural high :)
and now i'm waiting for krystian to come back from his hydroponic high ;)

2008-08-22T12:41:00.002-04:00

see the animal in the cage that you built
are you sure what side your on.

alright, haven't posted in a while.
yesterday was krystians birthday :)
so he came over in the morning, i made him pancakes
that said "1"6" they were hard as hell to make.
then he bussed me downtown.
i almost was late for work! but my amazing ninja prayer skills got me there a few minutes early.
on friday, everyone was calling me "Erin"
well, the older girls at work. it was fine.
i think they finally clued in when the Trainer was calling me Erica that Erin wasn't my name
bhaha, it wasn't bad though.
on thursday, (me and krystian didn't think we'd see each other on friday)
krystian came over early, i made french toast ^_^
i missed my bus - because of that stupid "NO SUMMER SERVICE" line.
honestly, like. you go on the GRT website
under "SUMMER SCHEDULE"
duhhhh. it should be all summer routes,
skhfdkjshfs
anyway, so i cabbed to work, with krystian :)
and he picked me up from work!
he brought me a rose, and we went abckt o my houes for a few minutes.
we played WoW.

So we are finally getting somewhere in that game.
although i really suck at it. its fun to play.
i spend most of my time on Follow mode, on krystian - because i have no idea where i'm going.
i keep using my hearthstone to go back to the town that i memorized, instead of staying in the city where i'm supposed to.
(hearthstone is a 1-use-per-hour button that lets you automatically go back to your "home"[you choose where you set it] no matter where you are)

Yesterday, i ran off the end of the map, intentionally.
and i was so mad. i was crying, and trying to find a WoW contact number.
i kept trying to run off more branches (when you run off the cliff, its infinite branches) but they never ended, os everytime i landed, i died, and i'd have to bring my spirit down all those branches. then jump off more.
eventually krystian googled "end of map"
and found a forum where someon did the same thing
they talked about how they got a G.M. to fix their problem, etc.
krystian wouldnt talk on the phone because he was busy "reading"
so i got him to link me to it.
a couple seconds after i went there. i finished the first post, read lthe escond - and remembered my hearthstone :)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i was saved!! boo-ya

At work! its pretty intense!!
not really. honestly we have just been ringing in the same items over and over and learning how to talk to customers using role play.
tonight is our first time on cash, omfg.
from 8:30-9:30 pm, i'm on cashier, for real :(

i hope people are patient, and know what produce they have.
I HOPE PEOPLE DON'T BUY FRIGGEN VEGITABLES, LMFAO OMG :)
i know what an artichoke, endive, annnnnd a rutabega are :)
pretty much, thats it, and like... romaine lettuc e- i dont even know what it looks like.
imma google "Vegitable recognition" right now.

2008-08-20T10:49:00.002-04:00

hopeless,
head-over-heels in the moment

alright! woah, this font looks big.
anyway!
yesterday was the first day of official work, and it was fun!
i went to krysties house yesterday for mcdonalds breakfast, to the bank, etc.
and we both played world of warcraft at his house.
right out of the south park episode :(
except we were serious :(

anyway, this morning, i went to huge lengths this morning to use an antiperspirant i have had for a while -
when it was drying, it left chalky residue all over my arms, except where the obvious hard-working-for-no-reason gland is.
so i went into the bathroom, to blowdry my underarms.
i got fucking flakes of this shit in my eye
and i've been wincing in pain ever since.
my eye is DRY AS HELL and i keep wetting paper towel and putting it on my eye
and it fawkin hurts..
this morning i already mished a lot to get stuff done.
i did a lot more - and it looks like i did nothing

so i hope the thought and effort will be appreciated :)
krystian will be here in an hour
and i hope my eye clears up either by then - or for work today :(

2008-08-17T11:59:00.002-04:00

kissed her for the first time yesterday
everything i wished it would be - suddenly i forgot how to speak

Alright :) posted yesterday! so im not too far behind.
yesterday me and krystian went to wendy's :)
and i used my spc card to get free frosties!
we got baconators, and i ate it Alllllllllllllll!!!1
annnnd umM!! yaa :)
we saw tropic thunder, and bussed home.
he bought me a webcam avec microphone, and we had good times
i have his technotrade shirt
muahahaha!

um, today, i plan to tan for a whiles :D
then krystian will come over, maybe we will make the 2:00 swim at harry class
no biggie though,
i really want to go to pita factory
they should have like, a points system for frequent flyers.
because i'd have a billion dollars in pita points.

:D...
ya :)

2008-08-16T15:47:00.003-04:00

called you for the first time yesterday
and finally found the missing part of me

Alright :)
haven't posted in a while! saturday, lots has happened since wednesday - last post.
uhh, yesterday was friday :)
me and krystian hung out in the morning, we got him ua and a new mouth guard, and we went home early ebcause i had work :D
first day of work! it was so amazign!
honestly, we just sat around, filled out paper work - and watched work-safety videos.
blah
okay, thursday, me and krystian hung out (big surprise)
we bought his christmas present, i bought new boots, and work pants, a work shirt, i bought work shoes, annnnnd, somethign else? i can't remember. hmm.

anyway :)
tonight is me and krystian to see tropic thunder, i am home alone afterwards, parents are out for a whileee.
today i tanned - for the first time in over a month
woo. and i mowed the lawn! omg. i never realized until i cut it (also havent done that in a month)
how long the grass was! friggen four inches long! omfg
it was soo cute afterwards :)
i got attacked by a camoflauged rose bush, and was flogged by falling apples out of the tree :(

good day today :)
hopefully me and krystian will go somewhere good to eat tongiht
*fingers crossed*

2008-08-13T21:11:00.004-04:00

i'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where i would impress you with every single word i said

Alright! i haven't posted in for EVAAAAAAAAa
but i thought i would also mention
ERICAS 100th BLOG POSSSSSSSSSST
thank you for the applause, your far too kind. bhaha
alright, so lots has happened!!
the day krystian bought me a wallet, i filled out an application for a job at Zehrs with trish!! :)
so i got called in for an interview since then,
and now i got the job :)
i work a FUCK load of hours though :(
fawk men, okay
todays wednesday, me and krystian met downtown after my job interview, and we went to pita factory, came to my house, slept - omg we were on the biggest natural high everrrr all day
bhaha. okay umm, we didnt really do much :P
yesterday, me and him bussed to mcdonalds, and mished to cibc, then to eb games, etc. then back to his house - i bussed home, slept all night.
beforeee that
woah, i have noo idea what i did tuesday?
uuuuuuuuh
[i take the bus transfers i have - and i write what i used them for - on the back, and i collects them :)
so i am going to get my wallet and check wht i did in the past week :P]
k, um, monday me an dkrystian went to the mall, and cinnabon. we bought tonnes of books, and bought ice cream :)
OH NO
FOR AUGUST 12 AND 13 I DIDNT WRITE WHAT I DID ON THE BACK :(
oh.. :) todaysss the 13th.
lmfaoooooooo.
so ya :) that smy week
wait,
oh ya :) sunday, me and trisha hung out!
we went to angels diner, and said our goodbyes, shes off to porkchopland now :(
daang.

ummm. ya :)
so tmorrow me and krystian are going ot the mall, i buy his christmas present,
fuck
lmfao
birthday present. i buy trishas coat, and i have to buy an outfit for work :(
hmmm. lots coming up :)
k.. one sec

2008-08-09T10:27:00.002-04:00

even though it seemed like the world was crashing on her
she didn't let it hold her back

Okays so ya :)
yesterday i picked up krystie from work. he was late - so we missed thaaa bus.
we went to check his account balance - fawk.
we get to the mall, chills. and we buy the tickets. we go to williams and we eats cake ^-^
we go to the movie, and i gotsded scared!
we went to pineapple express, and cabbed home.
the movie wasn tthat good
i walked home, and passed out.
wokes up, read more breaking dawn
like, i am 4/5 done it

2008-08-08T18:38:00.002-04:00

take me home, because this happens everytime
and i knew it would

Alright! sweet! Tonight movies, in like, ten minutes i leave.
krystian called earlier - he gets off of work an hour later
doesnt really effect us, so whatev.
i honestly couldnt think of anything to wear - except for what i'm wearing
lmao i feel likes a nerd
haircut soon.
my bangs are getting too long.
carole-lyne called me earlier
i have a job interview on wednesday
(she'll be my boss - she told me its for her boss)
and my training starts friday!
then i start on officially on monday
i've got crazy plans for this week.

im so excited!

2008-08-08T13:42:00.002-04:00

what would you think of me now? so lucky, so strong, so proud,
i never said thank you for that, now i'll never have a chance

Alright so everything has been pretty crazy lately!
Last post was tuesday, woaaah long time! Well, wednesday, me and krystian hung out,
kind of early! we went to mcdonalds for breakfast, then we went to the mall - just checking to mention that krystian bought me a wallet on tuesday.
so we get there, we wind up picking out a pair of ae shorts, two ae tshirts, and
a long sleeve, and a short sleeve aeropostale polo.
krystian winds up buying me a tna sweater, and tna knee high socks - from aritzia.
we go home, etc.
then thursday, the busses got mixed up, so me and krytsian take the 22 to sunrise,
we go to la vie en rose - etc.
and trish texts me says shes waiting at the mall for me. wtf
so we take the bus, and she meets us at forest glen.
krystian winds up buying me a trench coat from Costa Blanca
shorts from american eagle.
and i buy a shirt from bluenotes.

Krystian is a crazy bitch, btw.
in the nicest way possible.
i picked out his birthday present :)
hhhhhhm.
nothing ot do today, until 5:30
i only have to shower, get ready - etc.
then i am going to pick krytsian up from work
we go to the mall, chill -
then we go to the movies
to see pineapple express
*crosses fingers*
and cabbing home at midnight
sounds fun.

i am halfway through breaking dawn, i've been neglectful - i know.
wuthering heights is waiting for me aswell.
lmao ^_^

2008-08-05T19:46:00.002-04:00

I could stand here for hours just to ask God the question, "Is everyone here make-believe?"
with a tear in His voice, He said, "son, that's the question."

today was amazing!
trish came over just before krystian did!
mum was nice! and we went to mcdonalds for breakfast.
thens we went to world dom
i got my nipple peirced - annnd, um yah!
then we went to th emall
and krystian buoght me a new wallet

he dick moved and i punched him a bunches of times :O
but the wallet is gorgeous - holy fuck

He is home in an hour and a half :)
i hope he isnt dying..

alex is in poland, still. fuck
seriously - i die.

tomorrow me and krystian are going bowling
i went to hand in an application at zehrs - under patricias suggestion.
and i suppose my interview is wednesday

2008-08-04T20:08:00.002-04:00

cause it's your time
time to fly

Allo! HUGE post, ya?
of course.
hmm
alright, since last post - lots!
i read tonnes of breaking dawn - and me and krystie went to wonderland. omfg
craaaaaayzie good times, lots of foods, laffs and rides.
omfgz.
>: )))))))))
funnel cakes, subs, pizza, and onion rings. yes guy, it was soo good.
soo many good rides and tonens of "WHO WOULD YOU RATHER DO"

not much of a tan though, atleast theres no burn
we went on behemoth, dragon fire, top gun (fuck - flight deck), jet scream, mighty canadian minebuster, shockwave (WOAH,,,WOWWWW.WOAAAAAH), sledge hammer, the bat, thunder run, and the wild beast. we went on night mares, swing of the centure - the fly, and laser tag - yes guy. it was soo sick. and starbucks was teh rawk

um, then i get home, and i am hoem alone - i forgot my key so i had to find the ladder beside my house, in the pitch dark - i found the barbeque scraper - popped off the screen, and pryed open the window withthe bbq thing.
i get inside, after like, 10 minutes
and i get the nbiggest bloody nose ever :S
i get inside, blah blah, sleepy time!

today was teh pwn too!
i started a thing, on facebook - a fan page :D
me and krystian went bowling ------ :D
and then we wents tooooooooooooooooooo.
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum the movies
to see a mummy movie - soo douchey.

i wish other people updated there blogs like i do.

oh yeah, before the movie - we bought cookies, and a 2l of iced tea. we stole a bag rfom the bakery, dumped the cookies into the bag - and put the cookies into his pocket :D

ummm. we bussed home, and had some good times :)

aiiight me and krystie are going to timmies

"Alright, anything for you petey"
i love my neighbour (L)

2008-08-04T12:31:00.002-04:00

thinking about how we are gonna say our vows
it's cool, we are just friends

fuck
ran out of time
ttyl@!

2008-08-03T23:54:00.002-04:00

if i cant have anybody else but you,
baby don't you know what you put me through

man, im so tired.
i'll update tomorrow

2008-08-02T11:41:00.004-04:00

she walks down the aisle and i see all my friends smile.
cause now we're more then friends.

aklright! i havent posted in FOREVER me thinks! i shall go check it out :)
sunday, woahhh its saturday already
lmfao. okay soo
i got home from alexes, etc.
monday me and krystian weer supposed to go swimming! but we both fell asleep :P
so then we just stayed here - played mario party, and went out for timmies, and went to the parK! :)
Tuesday - me and alex went to waterloo park, we spent a lot of time there - and got bored, we went higher up king street -but found nothing.
so we went to victoria park - and i called my dad asking if i could "Stay to watch a movie"
but we really just hung out longer.
the next day, wednesday - me, trish and krystian went to the pool! krystian took tonnes of pictures, it was lovely :)
then trish went home, and me and krystian went to get whoppers - we picked up my dads prescription, and we got iced cappucinos!
we came back, read some cosmo - and waited out the storm.
standing at the bus stop, me and him practised our crazy fighting skills
JAB, JAB, JAB, JAB CROSS!
lmao. "PUNCH HIM HARDER!!"
bhaha
okay, thursday - was the last day i would see alex. booo
me and him.. had some encounters - at victoria park,
i went home on the eight o'clock bus, and me and trish went to mcdonalds!
we got home, and she has a fast computer now btw!!
umm.
then friday - yesterday.
me and trish went to the mall!
we missed our bus - when we left to visit krystiaN!
it was well worth it though - and we went to harveys after
we get on the bus, etc. make fun of some polaks.
bhaha
umm. we go to like, every store - trying to pick out sexy outfits. :)
we buy pairs of track pants, and i go home, get money from my mom
(by this time, i have sixty dollars!)
(plan for that money: 25- breaking dawn 40- nip piercing)
me and krystian decided, that he would buy the book, and let me borrow it.
he also bought me wuthering heights!
and we went to the mvoies, which he also paid for (god damn it)
i bought him a five dollar frappuccino though. :D
lmfao - not nearly enough reimbursement.
we hung out at the breaking dawn release at chapters for a long time - after we saw Step Brothers!
amna hung out with us there :)
umz. i am 200/750 thruogh the book.
i am planning on the piercing tonight, instead
OH
Wonderland with krystians family tomorrow?
i todl my parents.
they gave me fourty five dollars.
lmao :)
so today, i just plan to play around cool.
pick up krystian from work. god i hope he has clothes there
fuck, i bet you he wont.
i wish he'd call me. he called me yesterday. lmfao
anyway
so i gotta be ready again, get out and about
krystian finishes work at five,
so i'm gonna bus to his work. and bus back downtown with him.
we're gonna get pierced, and hang out :)
Omg!
build a bear! i forgot :)
hmm. ttylz gotta read

2008-07-27T20:37:00.002-04:00

How my heart is now wond'ring no mis'ry can tell
he's left me no warning, no words of farewell

HOLY FRIGGEN SHIT BEST 24 HOURS OF LIFE?
k, yesterday morning, i woke up at leas, and my dad picked me up aroudn 12 - i was still sleeping!
i get home, shower, etc. me and trish head out to beat rocks the block
it was pretty stupid,
no one really good was there, but we had some great times
i take the 9:45, and dearest alex met me at highland
after an entire walk through the pitch black, and a walk through THE FUCKING WOODS?
we gtet ot his house, i wanted to die!
we finally get in, and i crash on his bed
i pick out different pictures in the prints in his ceiling, and we wind up falling asleep for like, 20 minute intervals, waking up, talking for hours, then falling asleep for a bit - etc.
i get out of bed at 2:30, brush my teeth, change - etc.
we tried to stay up all night, but Bah humbug.
me and alex got into bed by 10:30pm, and stayed in till 5:30pm! lmfao
his huge, comfy ass bed,
lmfao
we talked about anythign and everything, and had a blast
i got home, mom was shitting her pants
i made this bullshit story up about how me and learrah were supposed to meet down town (and i was sleeping at her house - hiding the alex bit)
and then mary gets brough into it
i have no idea
but its all good now,
haha
my parents arent looking too deep into it - because they know its really fucked up and they will kill me.
klmao
me and mom are going to mcdonalds, then superstore
yummay! rofl
ttylz.

2008-07-26T15:32:00.002-04:00

there is no more hiding who i want to be
this is me

Alright! so yesterday trish came over in the morning
after i had a melt down, then i ahd a second melt down! fuck i was so pissed
um, then me and trish hung out for abits! then learrah picked me up
we went to the movies like, two hours early
The Adventurs of King Wizard and Princess Chef!
lmfao we went to Chapters and fucked around, then went to th emovies - we ate pizza hut, and then went to the theatre finally.
we were the first ones tehre, and we were sugar high to the max (first time for me in a LONG time)
not many people showed up, but it was mad jokes,
umm.
i laughed really loud :$ and
like, it'd be
JOKE -> ME LAUGH->PAUSE->EVERYONE ELSE LAUGH AT MY LAUGH
lmao :(:$

THE BUNKBEDS WERE A TERRIBLE IDEA, WHY WOULD YOU LET US DO THAT

omg step brotehrs was so jokes.
me and lea watched big brother - and slept all morning, i got picked up
i showered, and cut a chunk out of my leg :|
(ITS GONNA BE A MAD HUGE SCAR, IT EVEN TOOK OFF MY TAN :( )
with trish tonight, at brtb, then to alexes for the night.
i'm rather nervous
i hopes it will be goods.

i just sewed my pants
my parents are re-doing my bathroom,
fawk i'm nervous.
i have to get ready in here today :P
hmmz!
updates later me thinks

2008-07-25T08:53:00.004-04:00

i think about you everything, and when i fall asleep
you are in my dreams

kk, soo much has happened and yea! i havent updated in FOREVERZZZZ
Sawwwie.

i honestly dont rmemember what happened when
all i know is
yesterday - me and alex went with trish downtown, we walked her back up. me and alex walked to victoria park, hung out, then went to a different part, i slept, we walked around, i slept more, we talked a lot. i got a sunburn on my back!
ummm. and we saw a live preformance of romeo and juliet :)
tres beau.
me and him took a bus, which i thought turned into a different bus, no such luck :(

the day before, me and krystian hung out,
he came over in the morning, we made breakfast
we played mario party! then bussed to my old house :)!
we went to see The Dark Knight in the best theatre ever!
we bussed to my brothers house, for his birthday,
turned out we got hom ebefore he did >: )
ti was tres sick!!
dq cake, pizza, wii >: ))))
haha

umm, tuesday, krystian came over for the morning, till 2,
trish came over, and me and her figured out the japanese iq test -
which krystian couldnt :D
me and trish were trying to figure out what to do, and i do think we went to get pizza! after a huge dispute between lots of places to eat

monday - i will update when i remember (EDIT: I JUST REMMEBERED ME AND ALEX HUNG OUT :) i honestly dont remember, OH!!! WE WENT TO THE CHILDRENDS MUSEUM! AND THE MALL! And hung out at vic park :) then me and trish went out for pizza. rofl!)

sunday - me and krystian hung out! he was here and alex came home!! i wasnt allowed to see him though, :( me and krystian went to tim hortons, we played mario party, umm. thats it i think! we spent FOREVER trying to figure out my outfit :(

saturday - ribfest!!! me and trish went out for subway earlier in the day, played with her baby - and my gramma and her boyfriend came down! me and trish went to get cash for it, then we headed out. i text krystian "come homee" and he texted back "ironnnyyyyyyyy" so he came asap to rib fest!
me and trish went rock climbing there, and i won, the second one, i died - so did trish. and we gave up. we ate great ribs. we played near the water, with duckies and skipping stones, and realized we should all go back and rock climb!
so me, krystian and trish all went rock climbing!
i won, both times :D
fawk meng :D:D:D
i get home, trish goes home, krystian winds up staying.
we realize that cabs dotn take debit.
so i tel lmy mom weez goin ta get cash!
shes all "NOOO"
so she drives him home!

then friday!
i woke up, walked to shortstop very uncomfortably, realized they didnt have the phone card i needed, went home, got moreees munnie. changed shoees (i got blisters on the first venture of the morning) and went ot sobeys, they dont sell it either, so i walk farther down the street, get it, and go home. i got in total, three blisters on each heel - and two on the tops of each foot from the two pairs of shoes:(
BUT I GOT MY PHONE HOOKED UP :)
so since then i've been texting crazy a lot!
>: )

2008-07-17T16:25:00.002-04:00

you were everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be - but we lost it

holy FUCK
okay
so yesterday was NUTZO
i dont remember at all past like, 1:oopm till 7.
fucking soo much booze: brandy, whisky, wine, beer, rum and gin
hooooooooooooooooooly titzo man
and my mom comes home, KNOWS i'm smashed
i woke up fucking naked in bed, and mary wasnt there!
so i was like "wtfffff"
turns out my parents arent pissed - thank gooooood.
um, today
me and trish went to the mall, then to my moms carnival thing, and then all over downtown searching for new cellphones.
we mished ALL THE WAY to fucking frederick street from edna
fucking biggest mission of my life, serious.
we get to the place, and they are like, sold out of EVERYTHING
we're going back tomorrow though, when they get a new shipment
hopefully, in 25 hours, i'll have a brand new cellphone (yn)
hopppppppppppppefully.
thx god for trishie.
we're going to the evening swim at harry class tonight
not sure what else i can talk about
i had my first hang over, holy fuck that sucked.
i walked aruond with my aritsia throw-up bag, lmfao.
i had mcdonalds, and taco bell today, along with cotton candy and a snocone.
delishhh.
imma goo.

2008-07-15T17:38:00.002-04:00

i'm not yours
fuck you, don't try

alright, today wasnt too bad i guess
i did dishes, i made bacon and eggs with toast for myself
ribs for dinner
trish came over after going to justins
and came over before going to work
i got some pictures developed
hmm,
mom said that she has a battery for my phone
and from there, there is a plan from rogers for 10$ a month for 2500 texts
>: D that makes me happy
i used to spend 10$ up to three times a week for just 65 texts :(
and i'm raelly happy there is no contract or anything,
umm
i think i will get to reading tonight
yesterday, idk what went down
i had harveys
talked to nandor
me and trish went swimming
umm
i love vot
i hate having zero dollars
well
i have four,
and i need 3$ for swimming tomororw with mary
then i need like, 11.50$ for my phone phone
(tax on phone cards, wtF :P)
dinner, gtg

2008-07-13T19:36:00.002-04:00

i'm through
and i can't wait to get over you

alright, so today was jazz fest,
i slept today till like, 11:30 i guess
yseterday was the family birthday party for opa
it got rained out, so most people didn't show up - good great delicious food though :)
i just realized i updated on thursday last! woops
me and alex hung out on friday :) thank god!
we went to waterloo park - first tim eever for me! so much fun
we looked at the dirty water - and i slept alot :$
umm,
(L)
then we saw the car show, etc.
we bussed home, and me and mom went to superstore after
i didnt eat that entire day till 10:00pm,
i ate half of a chicken, a tub of cottage cheese, and a half a jar of pickles and drank half the juice :)
i havent got my results back from the doctor
but just incase
rip kochanie
mh, sunday - yea i got drunk at like, 11 i guess
on the phone with alex all ngiht, before he left for his cottage :)
i adore that boy with all i've got, really.

mmmh, today was so amazing :)
marys mom bought the cd of an amazing artist from the jazz fest :) soos i can listen to it now
today was so good : D
krystians in michigan, um, nothings much i dont think.
i am going to read
well, talk to krystian, then read :)
btw i've seen every vot video on youtube i think! gawd

2008-07-10T15:14:00.002-04:00

see the animal in his cage that you built
are you sure what side you are on

omg
okay so todays really bad
um yesterday i went shoppin then i applied at 5 or 6 places
umm, idk what else
today i slept, ate grilled cheese etc
krystian leaves for mish on sat
alex leaves on sunday
i might actually be ungrounded on friday instead of monday?
so if thats the case - i am actually alolowed to hang out with alex - ftw.
thats what i need righ tnow
and i have the family party on saturday
i want to hang out with mary soon
i get test results tomorrow i think
i hope
i hope.
i am going to clean soon
i am so dumb
i didnt charge my mp4
hm

2008-07-09T15:36:00.003-04:00

watch the stars
turn me to nothing

alright! so today wasn't bad
i went to the doctors
and i got a bunch of tests
everything everything, blood work and suck
i hasded a bruise all the way up mi arm :(
er.
then me and mum went shopping:)
williams for lunch,
i gawts and a+f shirt, apple bottom jeans ;) andd some suzie jeans
fawwwk
i love life :)
hmm, me and mom went to superstore and had some good times
can't really think of anythign else to post
idk when i last posted
but yesterday krystian came over, and we had some good times
we went to mcdonalds - and such
i am officially ungrounded on this upcoming monday
day befor eyesterday.. err. if today is wendesday?
monday i hung out with alex :) (L)
hmm.
i recieved a "paragraph" from both of them on wha tthey think of me
and i had a crazy down time - like, super depressed
i really think i've figured most of the stuff out
mary gave me some wise advice - which i wouldn't have figured out.
adam gauthier is teh jokesest bhaha
trish :) gave me a picture of me and her, so i shall fix up my room and
frame some photos
:)
i can't wait.
i am not in the mood to clean, but i don't think i have anythign else to do today!!
hmm :)

2008-07-07T19:13:00.003-04:00

one day
they'll know just who we are

alright
i'm home,. and i JUST remembered about my blog
i came home yesterday, around 4-5.
today i hung out with alex, fun fun fun :)
he madeds me cries!
hmm
okays, soo
i got a mani/pedi, i went to gina + georges (swimming) i went shopping, and we boughts millionz of stuffs, i got a lot of reading done, and a lot of writin gdone
i found omas old clothes
and opas type writer - i met a woman from hell (liz)
i found stuff from my grandpa, and i watched some quality tv.
we listened ot the radio a lot
and i had tonnes of delicious food to eat:)
i learned lots of german, and i exercised a lot.
i met a lot of people - and we went to german church
i had a lot of laughs - and some hidden tears
i'm happy to be back, and i hope i can just fix everything.

2008-06-30T13:04:00.003-04:00

we ain't go no money, honey,
but we got rain

it pisses me off that no one updates their blog as much as i do
i mean, i keep my creepy fans updated nonstop with whats going on
(or i just have no one to fucking talk to and i will go insane if i do put it ouT)
or you know, the fact i want everyone that isnt with me to be able to read up on how deathly bored i've been.
i suppose i will gather my clothes now,
i have to find my usb charger,
then my hair straightener. i dont know how i will do my hair today
i am so worried. i have no idea what my gramma has planned to do
*focus erica, remember, she makes good food*
fawk, here its just like
":) MUM WAS TIRED, SO WE ORDERED INNNNNN:)"

>.< i liked it better when mom didn't have a job, and spent all day cooking - and then i could refuse it because i wanted to go to mcdonalds.
now taht i HAVE TO EAT IT. rofl, i dont want to.

i suppose i will go read, retrieve some stationary,
etc. i obviously will be back to post later - i am bored like that.

2008-06-30T12:51:00.003-04:00

you trained these lips when they were champs,
and now they're itching for a come back
so come back

Alright,
i spent just over an hour mowing the lawn
my lawn mower feels like a portuguese womans razor
seriously, it was bush-city on my lawn
my mom put a FUCK LOAD of fertilizer on my lawn a while ago
because she didnt replant her garden bed this year
so she had to cover up
(wow, i just realized how cute those garden beds were, stones to surround the beautiful flowers)
anyway, she had to cover up the random patches of earth
and it was just like, crazy mo-fxkin like, weird leechy leaf stuff
and me and krystian were like "wtf" at it yesterday
rofl.
today i spent like, 20 minutes alone, just going over the big bushy pubes
then i went under, and it was LOVELY GREEN GRASS ^_^
i was veyr happy,
but daddy said i didnt have to do the back, i did all around the side
my raspberry bushes at he side are MAD HUGEEEEEEE.
they have ltitle baby raspberries on them - but they arent dun growing yets.
soo.
and i dids the whole backyard
it looks really nice, i'm happy:)
i have to decide what to take to gramms.
and i have to shower
i have a few hours still
and i have never felt so uneasy
i have no body to say good bye to.
everyone is gone.

2008-06-29T17:49:00.002-04:00

you have a dangerous face,
and an illegal taste

alright, today isn't too bad
i am doing a LOT of cleaning
hmm,
tomororw is going ot be bads i think
but not too bad
i don tknow!
i dont wan tto go
krystian came over earlier
we bought bagels + went to tim hortons
in the rain :(
um, i gave him a book.
he went home
i hxc cleaned
watched the game :( :( :( :( :( (U)
umm, what elseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i dont even know,
my aprents are in a huge fight
thats c00.
i fix it ^-^

hm, note to self: ask mary how red lobster was.!
ia m going to continue cleaning!

2008-06-28T16:24:00.002-04:00

the rush
of a new lovers touch

alright, idk when last post was
i must check
(i start a lot of blogs like this! )
alright
yesterday
thats not too bad!
i have spent the last while trying to find the adapter for my speakers so that i can listen to music in my room while i clean
i have to do a LOT of laundry
almost two weeks with gramma? fawk!
i want to ask if she can pick me up tuesday
so i can check for job interviews and such.
umm, today lazy day:)
sleeping, and such
because i stayed up late watching movies
today i will hunt for a box to put away..old things
krystian is at a kickboxing tournament.
nationals, i hope he does well.
i am halfway through alexs book that he recently borrowed me.
i just realized i need to slow down - since i only have two of his books left
(and i'm halfway through both) which have to last me quite some time.
perhaps i'll find a nice bookshop in toronto:)
i wonder how it will be,
i don't think toronto would be too bad.
its just, withdrawal of everyone.
hmm,
i will have music,
just not any NEW music, that entire time (baaaaaaaallz)
i hope to obtain money.
imagine, a part time job for two weeks
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i think this trips going to be much worse then i hope.
i will definitely keep a journal.
that will hopefully keep me sane.
i just realized i love dashboard again.
balllllz
today i discrovered several composers that i love :)
and i cant get a damn mp3 offfffffffffffffffffffff gounod
pissin me offffffffffffffffffffffff.
alright, i must get off for a bit!

2008-06-26T19:51:00.003-04:00

standing on the rooftops, waiting till the bomb drops
this is all we got now, scream until your heart stops

so,
since my last post
a LOT of shit has gone down
okay, tuesday, i dont evenremember what happened?
wednesday, yesterday
with alex, from 12pm-1:30 am
we went to victoria park
to fairview
to conestoga
to highland
to pita factory
to the movies
we saw two silent films, and the Sex and Violence cartoon festival
we are officially dating.
today, trish came over, we made pancakes
then we wnt out for lunch
and bunned at my house
my dad walked in

so im in BALLS DEEP trouble yoo.
if i can, i will post anythign new up here
idk about msn anymore

i need to go job hunting tomorrow
a job is the only thing saving me from
the doom of grandmothers house for two weeks

a job would totally save my life,
i need one SO bad.
hmmmm. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
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and btw mary
my blog is on specific spacing,
width wise, so most of th etime, if i let my lines flood over, it stretches the text box and then you have to scroll sideways to read it
yes? am i right?
i dont actually know, shit!
anyways
my life is balls

dad; we decided what your punishement is
me: waht
dad: well. *talking* what is the worst thing possible
me: taking away books.
daD: hahahahhaha nooooo. Grammas house:)

haha.
so, i dont think it woul dbe that bad,
i just hope her boyfriend wont be there
AND
the fact gramma doesnt know abou tmy tattoo
is really bad.
so showering, or if we go to her friends cottage
i am screwed.
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GOD DAMN IT

2008-06-23T21:25:00.002-04:00

if you ever hear someone say you are huge,
look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun

alright,
so i think i posted yesterday
alright
umm
today, i woek up at seven, then slept till 9:30
my mom said bye to me at 7,
i was home alone
and trish came over
we did shots
then we went to the mall
then we walked home
we hung out in our undies
we got REALLY HIGH
we went for pizza
umm, ya
i watched donnie darko today
i am going insane without a book.
really fun times today
i love trish
new picture for myspace/facebook
from today
rofl chcheck it out
"i want to make it look like my head is melting ofF"

2008-06-22T10:56:00.003-04:00

I never meant to brag

but i've got him where i want him now

alright, i'm not sure when my last post was!

i must go check

friday

woahh, so long ago!

okay, well

friday night, em and trish got REALLY HIGH

then we went to her house, she cleaned

then we went to tim hortons

then to the park

then home

and i was soo fucked

alex had already left for his cottage

me and trish went to east sides earlier!

we got booze

it was good

um

saturday

i slept a LOT

it was weird

i woke up and read

then slept more

then read

then we went to th emovies

(mom, krystian, paul and jinnie)

um

today me and krystian are going to HCP

to break the cherry of the summer!

Hmmmm

i am excited

2008-06-20T17:48:00.002-04:00

i never meant to brag
but i've got him where i want him now

hm, last day of school today!
umm, i must check my last post.
yesterday, k
last night, idk, i slept.
i talked to alex a LOT
today i went to first period
i totally learned SO MUCh in math class
then i skipped - with aledx to tim hortons
then we went abck to school
we got "caught" by mr.ingoldsby
and then we went to the park
it was pure
in every sence

got home
now me and trish are going to blaze
ya boy

2008-06-19T16:58:00.002-04:00

the whisky's waiting on the fire top
the babys going to drink too

i'm not sure when my last post was
but my blogger account is blocked from school
anywayyy
i dont even remember what happened since then?
obvs lunch with alex
monday after school - i do believe
was out with alex
fun as hell
downtown, then uptown, then the amll
then tuesday night, i got drunk
then wednesday i got high with trish and krystian in my basement
(my dad totally knew)
and today, naht sah mach
i was really high still in school today - from yesterday
me and alex hung out at lunch
funz
germany beat portugal
so i'm being called a nazi
btw, my new boyfriend: Robert Kovac

Fawk ya
german born croatian player.
Ummmmm,
ya nothinggggggggg, ttyl

2008-06-16T13:28:00.000-04:00

The more you buy
The bigger the discount

Hm, alright, I am typing this blog through Microsoft word because I have to pretend I am doing work. I hate business class, and I don’t have anything to do other then making the story – but I have LAL WEEK to do that (stupidDDDDDDDD) ummz. Idk when I did my last blog post. Brb I must bcheck (I hate microsofts spell echeck )
Mhhh, Friday the 13th, crazyyy.
Um Saturday wasn’t baaad
I don’t remember what I did during the day
OH
Friday night – I slept over at learrahs – and we watched all the old episodes of so you think you can dance. And then we went in the pool and we terrorized the little kids
Then in the morning we watched hairspray – and we went into the pppppoool!
And we tanned (I got burned)then that night I went home, gramma was over
Me and trish hotbox4ed her bathroom! Good times
I had to go home and act sober
Btu I was high out of my mnd! Motha fuck!
Then Sunday my parents had a garage sale
Idk how it was but me and krystian got high as fucK!
And he wasn’t – so much!
But we went to harveys
And then my mom picked us up
I like
Was asleepppppppppppppppp soo bad
Umm.
Then we went home – ate ribs and chicken (fuckign delicious)
Then I was like, quite all night.
Um, today was fun
My sunburn hurts L
Ummm,
Idk !
Oh!
Math exam, open book
I took notes on EVERYTHING that was on it – connor nicolaidis needs the note, so I tooooooookks down like EVERY question
So he wil have the exam, I am happy for that.
Umm.
History class was fun
Alex reminded me of the word “RHINELAND”
So I was SOO HAPPY
Lunch was really fun
I played brick on aleks ipod

Ummm. Religion was funny
Beharry asked me about me and alex
So did natalia
And mary
Fuck
Nosey peoplzzzzzzzzz

2008-06-13T14:00:00.002-04:00

through the summer, and the fall
we had each other, that was all

Hm, today wasnt very bad
i decided i wouldnt do my exam thing in math
soo i will get a rly bad marks >.>
um,
it wasnt bad
and in history
we had to do the exam essay
i think i raped it.
my entire project was on the evolution of human rights in canada
and the essay was onnnn
umm
"how did the treatment of canada change through the years"
something like that -
sooo bananaz!!!!!!!1
it was good
lunch, em and alex relocated to another side of the hill.
and we continued the discussion of people going in the out exit
AND there was a person with a very screechy car!! lmfao
and :(
i hate bugzzzzzzzzzzz.
alright, then religion
wasnt too bad, i did some math hw,
not a lot though :p
ummm.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
vicky just said she is going to go to school for 5 years
to become a social worker
to take away my kid
then she will switch careers. fuck! lmao

religion was kind of gayyyyyyyyyyy!
hw, then we spent half the class doing quiz
i fuckin raped jamieson a few times!

hmm, first, it waaaaaaaas.
idk?
the second one, was that HE kisses the coaches ass.
then after i dont remember what it was
and then he said he had a secret weapon
"you have alot of those - Rufies, thats how you get your dates"
haha, bahhh-zing!

hmm, aarong ave me a sour gumball
and i was all teary :(
it was called "cry baby"
lmao

OH
CONNOR
HAD PINS MADE
BLACK - WITH A PICTURE OF RASPBERRIES
AND TI SAYS
"YOU ARE THE BERRIES"
ON IT
OMFGGGGGGGGG
I have never laughed soo hard in my ilfe

right now i'm listening to joe rogans stand up about blowjobs.
goood times
i miss trish

learrahs house tonight
bikini - and i've got like, 6$
umm,
i think, her pool,
and watch a lot of PVR and stuffz.

i am exciteddddddds.
i am wearing my bikini at her house
i am kind of nervous
first time i'm..displaying my tattooooooooo.

I wotn get to talk to krystian tonight
and i wont get to talk to alex all weekend.
fuck, seriously.
i wont get to see a lot of people this summerz.

OMG
okay
Nick Roy was typingon a graphing calculator
and it said "RICK"
and i was ilke "wowza, if you switch the first letter of his first name,a nd the last name it amkes rick!"
so i was looking around the room doing it to peoples names!
"nonnor cicolaidis"
not so much
"hustin joffman"
not so much!
BUUUUUUUT
NICK DINH
LMFAO
YES GUY

then!
in religion
me: so i was lookign aroung the room... "nonnor cicolaidis." no-
kent *TURNS AROUND: MY DAD HAS THAT!
me: : ?
kent: YES! ITS A CANCER
me: ...i dont think so?
kent: YES! ITS IN THE BOWELS. BUT! It goes away SO DONT THINK HE IS A FREAKKKKKkkk

i never laughed soo ahrd
okay
so there slike
5 minutse left
and
lmao victoria is wearking shoes that have bells on them
its raelly funny

i want to go home and sleep
:(
fml
lmao
Shiiiiiiits

2008-06-12T14:18:00.002-04:00

the very dream that led to them
are keeping them from dying

Alright, i'm REALLY FUCKING BORED
five minutes of class left/
i just spent 20 minutes fucking reading the
intro->how to play-> and all the TECHNICAL RULES of the Euro Cup pool
by tsn
there are ALOT of rules, lmao
I AM SO BORED
I HAVE NOTHIGN TO WRITEEEEEEEee
YESTERDAY WAS MUCHO FUNO.
OMG-OH

i am so bored that ia m reading old post secrets

2008-06-12T14:08:00.003-04:00

i wanna fall in love tonight
i remember when you said everything would be alright

i forgot to post about yesterday
trish was already at my locker
i took the LONG WAY to it
me and trish walked through the forum
roussy is a fucking douche bag
lmfaolmfao. srs
okay
ummmm
me and trish went to highland
then to winners
then couldnt find anythign to buy
then left
thennnnn
pizza!
then krystian came overz
we hung out
we went to burger king
yeah
bse, btw.
orgzm.
mmmmmmmmmmmh.
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
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2008-06-12T13:49:00.003-04:00

i'd do anything for you

kill anyone for you

alright today isnt bad!

math class

we had a substitute - Mr.Pus

(poos.! LMFAO "cause her teeth has a POOSAYYY")

nick dinh helped me with the math review due next thursday

ummm

me and connor video taped his thing

and you can hear me makiing the shiney noise!

umm.

history class

i was standing on the huge ass portable stairs

5' above ground :(

trying to do an aerial attack on alex

teacher made me get down

and alex came TEN MINUTES LATER

history was quiet

but not boring.

me and alex sat on the jaques cousteau hill

mm

religionc lass was REALLY BORING

i've been making fun of the kroats all day

:'(!

germany losttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

^_^ Alas, Poland will lose on sunday!

muahahaha. : D

i finished all of my overdue work in business class in like 20 minutes

and teacher like, cant stop making pervert jokes

idk if he knows how gross it is

i think trish is working today

so i dont know what i'm gonna do tonight

i need a math whiz to help me. fawk

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

i have a 75 in history class

alex has like, a 74.3

:D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thats if id ont do the exam,

so i hope it will gose up.

15% = Essay on Friday + Test next week

honestly

itsl ike, a dream

i cant beileve schools almost over.

i am teh soo sad

germans were soo cocky today

the croats are ilke "We will love our country no amtter what"

Balls!!

We will just torch their asses next time.

xD litrly.

lmao

pcz

2008-06-11T13:37:00.003-04:00

he holds my hand, and gives me a wink
it makes my heart just skip a beat

alrightttttttie
today was the trigonometry test
and my teacher said that we can write
NF On the top if we're not done
i was done - but i had shit i didnt do
so i know what i have to learn by friday
so i can fill in the rest of the test.
um, history - was fun..no it was
essay prep
so we get to make a cheat sheet basically.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
lunch, em and alex sat
and i got bitten by an ant
he pulled a fluffy off of me
then there was an ant!
and he got that off me too
trishs hould just be getting into her appointment.
i hope shes done on time
seriously, i'm not waiting for her

she has an ortho appointment down the street
and she told me to bus with her home
so iw ould
but if shes not done by 2:20
and doesnt make it up the street by 2:25-30
i am NAHT waiting. srs grrr.

i have a tummy ache
i'm SO HUGNRY
i bought a bacon bagel
the only thing close enough to count as food for the past two days

tonight - with krystian. burger king
i mgiht eat two, who knows.
lmao my teacher just bitched out someone for whislting
wait, its only 1:40?
shit,
her appointment starts at twooooo.

whatever
i'm really fucking hungry!!!
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um, religion was fun
mary sat beside me
we did "exam review"
bahaha they actually believe we do it
then we play "Who'd you do"
and you have to set parameters
then leo was like ":O"
and i explained it to him
hes like "YEEEEEEEEE, DAAAAAAAVID!
YOU GOTTA PLAY THIS GAME,
WHO OUTTA EVERYONE, WOULD YOU JUST
RIP THE FUCK OUT OF THEIR ASS:D"
then mrs.beharry heard :(
so we had to stop
but we still did ^ .^
haha

i have been wasting time by reading old blog posts
haha
i am only at may 20
i have lots to go - i think
shiesse.
No math teacher tomoor
and its only 2:10 ish
ten minutes left in class
kilet tekie i sso cute
OMG
UMMMM
Portugal vs. Chek
3-1 apparently
haha
and!
poland vs. croatia is like
the deciding game!
croatia vs. germany thursday
TOMORROW!
You guys pumped FUCK YA!
k
almost done class
like
five minutse
um
i am on June 3
for reading them
trish shuold be here
or soon
i will stall at my locker to see her - take the long way down to it
hm
i'm not sure ewhat i want to doo
i have to waste time
mp4 player is dead
aiight
bye

2008-06-10T13:09:00.002-04:00

i'm flying a cloud to the other side of the world

i'm guided by the stars of love - a whisper in my ear

i've been planning on posting, but i always forget

one second, i must check the last post.

friday - at school.

well, by the way - that night was the WORST of my life!

i couldnt believe it -

okay, so my comptuer, on thursday night was TOTALLY shitting its ass

then friday my dad was like
"paul gave me these disks"

and they were norton ghosts

so we took like, three hours loading them.

the viruses prevailed, because i dont actually know how to

manuver it

anyway. friday night i was DEATHLY bored

krystian called me at like, ten, so my night was semi-saved.

saturday, was Fathers Day at my house

not too bad!

family came over,

me and krystian hung out. fun times were had.

i saw andrew from the party

and my moms like

"boys love youu"

it was cute.

hmmm, what elsee.

me and krystian went for a walk

and i FELT like i got only like, one mosquito bite on my arm.

sunday me and krystiwn went to build a bear

new one named Milo. cutee.

its a panda.

umm

we saw KUNG FU PANDA

and i kind of like, made fun of (in epic proportions) a fat kid.

:(

umm. yah

then it was pOURING RAIN
and, ya

i bussed home.

NEW COMPTUER WHEN I GOT THERE

Fucking HD TV!

Fuck you rich kids, i am excited, k :)?

alright. ummmm :)

idk what elseeeeeee.

alright

then it was POURING

and me and trish wanted to go to mcdonalds

so we walked

then i deicded i wanted cereal isntead

i spent 10$ on cereal and thinsations :)

got home, dad had a spaz attack about

something my mom did wrong on comptuer

i STARTED my culminating in history.

so, i wake up the next morning - and cant finish it

ballz, ballz, ballz.!

so i decide to play it cool, pretend that i forgot it.

teacher thinks my testicles made of masking tape are my project

me: noo.

teacher: kk, well, bring it after school

i told him i could email it -

blah blah.

then i go home, and realize id ont know his first name

so i couldnt email it! muahaha.

lunch with mary - fun.

alex stayed hoem to clean - douche.

i tried that new donut - the candy kind of hurt my teeth.

hmm, what else.

business test yesterday - kind of boring.

Alright, after school, me and trish go to pita factory

then go to baskin robbins

and the dollar store.

and we made plans for mall for today.

today, woke up really early

finished project,

stole my moms package of her american express cards

so idk if she will be mad.

math was okay, the class tournament

where people are in groups and go up to the board and finishe math questions in a contest

my group was all smart kids (Raise the Roof for Nick Dinh yo!)

they invited me, so it was okay

NOTE TO SELF : Math Review is due next thursday

history was fun, as per usual.

hergott looked sad - and i thrived.

lunch, funz, of course.

religion, finished my essay

i need to decide if i want to write it by hand

or type it. idk yet

or type it and print it in a fancy font ^.^

anyways, its ten paragraphs long

paragraph = 9-10 setences each

ya n**ga.

leo was sketchily asking for alexs information

i am scared that he is going to set a booby trap.

alex is no booby - i hope he wont die because of me!

umm. leo eavesdrops

what else

now, business exam,

teacher said mine was crap :(

(i rushed through it)

so i re-did

it

mmmhm perfect as per usual

LMFAO I LOOKED OVER, HOOJEEK IS ODING MATH HOMEWORK

Oooooz

i said "Ona to povejawah" to alex

he said i sounded asian

HOOJEEK SAID I SOUNDED ASIAN TOO :(

so i resaid it to spiewak and shes like ":) (L)"

OMGG!

natalie: i am cheering for my team right now, polands playing:)

me: i cheered for mine sunday

natalie: me noo

me: but..mine won

natalie: no?... YOUR NOT GERMAN :@

me: yes i am :S ; D

lmao good times!!

hm

my foot is DYING

and its only like quarter to 2. i think i will type my essay now.

wow. i am almost done typing it

in not even 15 minutes. scareey

i will post it!

2008-06-06T14:19:00.000-04:00

i know i once mocked you,
but i'm dying to pay for it now

http://i27.tinypic.com/35jh0k0.jpg
LOL LEWKS AT THAT!!
ITS MY COAT OF ARMS FOR BUSINESS CLASS
I AM SOO SEXY

2008-06-06T14:05:00.003-04:00

i was away, for a while. and i'm hoping some day you will forgive me
and, i don't deserve it. i'll cherish it well if you give me one of your new starts.

Alright, math class wasnt bad,
we had a fire drill
rofl
"WHY ARENT YOU IN UNIFORMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM :(
I SHOULD HAVE REMEMBERED TO BRING MYYYYYYYYYY SWEATER"

the air is SOO THICK and humid, its balls.
mary is on her trip today, same with learrah.
history class wasnt bad.
we justl istened to music
and alex "examined" my cursive writing, and told me a bunch of things about it.

hmm, lunch, me and alex went through the rest of the wheres waldo book
and then we went through the "TOP TEN" of things
bell rang
i went into religion
i told the teacher i ahd to go for the bus pass thing
then i went to the cafe and bought cookies.
i came back, and we watched some movie
my teacher said we had to take notes
but i totally didnt
i slept for most of it
aaron kept STOMPING on the gorund everytime he walked by to wake me up

nick gomes IS on fb, reciever - cuteee.
umm.
okay,
so yesterday, the comptuer was RETARDED
me and trish went out for a mcflurry, then to the park.
good tiems,
i got home, went on the comtpuer
and at 9:07
i was lik e"aleks, i am going to restart my comptuer"
because the internet wasnt working.
i got back on
and it wouldnt work still, and it wouldnt let me signo n msn!
i was configuring EVERYTHING KNOWN TO MAN
and i couldnt get it
but of course, limewire was working!!

its from the damn virus thing my mom downloaded the other day
hmmmm,
then i spent an HOUR
and i couldnt fix it
i called trish, and she didnt answer
so i pushed Call-Redial-(till answering mchine)-Hang Up-Call-Redial repeat.
she didnt answer for a lonngg time
then she finally did
me: can you tell krystian to call me
trish: GO ON MSN *Hangs up

me: *crrrrrrrrrrrying for a logn time
trish calls back: Okay WHY ARE YOU CRYING
and i told her! me: I JUST AWNT TO CRY AND COMPLAINNNNNNNNN
trish: ok i will tell alex to call you :P
me: NOOOO LMFAO KRYSTIAN!!!!
*hangs up
me*crying in bed for like, five minutse
*phone rings
caller id: KRAWCZYK
*Answers
me: AR EYOUF UCKING KIDDDDDING
alex: ^_^ noo.
so i todl him my huge story
alex: so, if she would have said "DOWNLOAD THIS SONG" rather then "GO ON MSN" she would have saved you much distress.

l;mao. we were on the phone till 11:20
so, i'm getting a new comptuer this weekend apprtly ^_____^

2008-06-05T06:51:00.003-04:00

i wasn't sure that i could, i wasn't sure that i could;
but i can.

My computer, i think, may officially work permanently.
it went through puberty, and the bar came back
i left a note to my mom to put the cimputer
on hibernate when she was done

it was just, like, moniotr asleep when u got back

yesterday me and krystian hung out
funfun. whoppers :)

hmm, today will suck
EVERYONE is gone.

fuck.

i suppose i'll get a lot of reading done.

2008-06-04T13:41:00.005-04:00

look, here she comes now
bow down, and stare in wonder

you can't find yourself - your lost in your lie

alright today is pretty good i guess
math was... GOOD At the beginning!!
i was understandign everything
then my teacher is a DUNCE and was like "Idkkk whyyy"
and she tried to like, show up the kids
then she oculdnt figure out why (she showed them up, but she didn want to, deep down)

so she went ON AND ONNNN
it was sooo boring.
and, what elseeeeeeeeeee.
umm! :)
History, we had a supply
she PRO NUN SEEE ATES each word
she made me soo mad

um,
lunch in library

"i saw you ,a nd i yelled 'what about krystian' i was like wtf, why diose he have her arm around her"

Omgg lmao
i honestly didnt noticeeeee.
i must ask aleks. lmao

alright,
and religion was good
i got alot of work done again
mary is off to eat crepes.

hmmm,
krystian tonight
rofllll

i miss trisssssssssh

2008-06-03T13:12:00.004-04:00

"show me how you do that trick.
"the one that makes me scream" she said

alright, havent posted in a while because my comtpuer at home is really dumb
umm,
alots happened, actually.
not sure what to talk about
yesterday i met marys dad!!
he is soo funny
and they both make facist/communist leader references
soo they are totally related.

sunday - idk what happened.

i dont remember
OH !!! ME AND TRISH GOT soooo drunk omfg

Okay!! ahahhahaahahaha
goooood times
"i dont want no fuckin jelly chicken!"
then she went home - and wouldnt goooo to umm, tim hortons with me
fml.

then monday!
umm, yesterady
nothing much
alex gave me a new book
we sat on the jacques cousteau hill!
i had an intimate encounter with bugs :(

umm, last night, i didnt doo much!
yeah, again!
me and trish didnt hang out,
i toko a bath when i got home
curled hair
did laundry
met dad:)

today
was good -
spent 15$ on food.....
shit
lmao

umm, LMFAO connor has a huge hole in the top of his mouth
Omg! honestly. soo funny
damn you dowels from mrs. spitzig. lmao!!!!!!!!!
sdfjksdhfjksdh hahaha
um

me and alex were talking about how i'll kill mr.hergott.
and then we spoke of the weapon
and later justin brought it up!
hah
and i made a reference to jake kerouak?
and he tiotally got it! : )

ummm,
lunch with mary

very productive religion period
why do i refuse to do business.
cause its fuckin boring

beharry was lik e"ERICA...DID YOU SPEND LUNCH WITHA LEX AGAIN!?"
me: no......yseterday though, why
beharry: idk. nvm :)

ahh. i must ask alex if he commited a ccrime
and i gots in trubble.

lmao. alright
i willz do ummmm
...sumthin idk yetz
oh i lied
religion project i thinx

2008-05-31T17:24:00.002-04:00

you've had too much to think
now you need a wife

Alright
trish came over for a bit
i showed her my whisky
i did some research awn FIREBALL

apprtly teens drink it cause it tastes good,
and gets you drunk rly fast

haha, anyway
tomorrow me and trish wil dew shawts

she came over for a bit
holy fucking guy flipped a truck

i just checked the record website
making sure it didnt make any stories

i spent from like, 5:00-5:30
on urbandictionary
searching "Smarter Child"
and looking at the pictures of screenshots that people took
of their stupid conversations with it

2008-05-31T11:13:00.002-04:00

baby stop and stare
you'll look and see but you wont care
alright, last night was fucking BANANANAANNAs

okay
like, eight o clock
me mary and bobby play flip cup
haha

okay, so i downed a beer then
ig ot REALLY red in the face, i was like, passed out onthe table

then around 8:30
people started pouring in, under 10 though
our booze arrived
captain morgan
i made a half and half drink
spiced rum tasted like balls and i almost threw up just smelling it

so i weened it down eventually
then later me and mary were jus thanging out with kelvin, and.. anwar? lmfao

and then ya ummm
kelvin drew me some ink ! LMAO
okay
so then i get a few beers in me
kelvin shared
yay!!

um, so we're all just like, hanging out
and some girl from rez said i was giving her dirty looks

i defused that shit, thank god

um,
so i am talking to andrew and kelvin (cool new friends)
and blah blah,
ti am very ummm, not pumped to tella ny more about it.
But anyway waywayway

um
a fucking drunk guys truck got flipped

hes so fuckign dumb yooo

and this mornign when bobby got home
he thought i was porscha. lmao

um, so whatev, i am going

2008-05-30T18:46:00.003-04:00

alright

i'm not sure how i am doing
but bobby BASHED the door
and said hi to mary
then he saw me
ERICAAAAAAA! YOU READY TO PARTY?!

then mary was like
*up against the window
mary: Theres a really hot guy outside, hes the only one facing the window

she like, obnoxiously looked out the windo
and apparently no one noticed

then she told me to look
i didnt want to look incase they noticed me
then i crawled on the ground and like,
slowly moved a corner of the curtin
and the "hot guy" fucking noticed me
fucking bastard.

"i am emotionally sharing, am i drunk"

lmao
Ciclon is discontinued in canada
wtfwtfwtfwtwfwtwftwtfwtwrw

2008-05-30T13:15:00.003-04:00

take me with you,
i will never let you down

LMFAOOOOOOOOO
BITTTTCH FIGHT
LETS GO FUCKIGNS SCRONNY MOTHER FUKER
I"d LOVEEE TO SMASH HER FACE INTO HER OWN
........skinnyness.

i feel like i'm in the 5th grade again
serioously omfg its never been soo bad
"YEAH..WELL....YOUR FAT"

this si so dumb

Alright
Soo

tonight i am going home
then going to marys
then i'm going to get drunk as fuck
today was pretty good
this mroning, math was good i actually learned something
umm, history was funny

"What are we gonna do"
"What do we always do"
"Try to take over the world?"
but it got postponed due to rain

hmm, me and alex sat in the library
and read books about bling
i didnt get the free lunch
alex gave me his ticket thing
and i gave russels mine

i am planning on gfinishing the book before fifth
so i can give it back to alex

hopefully i can ilke, stlak him, and get a new one from him before the weekend is over.
i dont know good books. lmao

alright, going to continue reading
down with hoojeek!

p.s. i really want pizza, and pancakes

I SHOULD BRING JAGERMEISTER TO AMRY SHOUSE
OMFGGGGGGGGGg

2008-05-29T14:04:00.005-04:00

she fixes her lips; they always look perfect.

never a smudge line, never too much

"ATLEAST I WONT BE FAT"

hoojeek is a dead man

we totally are goign to rape her

honestly

we're going to cut off her head

sssssssssssrsssssssssssssssss.

Fuckin Cunt, nOOOOOOOOO LIE

2008-05-29T12:12:00.002-04:00

"don't waste your time with politics" he said
"just chase skirts instead. life is too short, and your almost dead"

I am content, with everything i've got
and everything thats happened
i am clear and carefree and today helped me alot

i'd like to thank you
more deeply then you'd know.

You helped me overcome this
you've got no idea what it means

"yea" "i know" and interjecting that you know what i mean
you've got to know what it means.

there is no longer a void, or a problem with me
i'm thankful, for everything and everyone
possibly careless

: )

mmmmmmmmmh

in relig
in the hub again
mary beat up thomas james for teh comptuer ebside me
same comptuers as this morning

Omg. okay

Ryan, Justin, Alex and I were sitting at these four comptuers
and we used like the MAGNETIC FIXER to try to explode the computers

then we got ben down.
bens screen went like, shakey as fuck
it was SO hilarious.

Alex did a crazy quiz today
fourth lunch bell
this is teh crazy

beharry asked what me and alex were
i later explained that we are Hill-Sitting buddies

she said she liked that.
haha.

i've got nothing better to do
i forgot my book today

trying to bring the other one for alex.
Bastard

mary is jealous that i am typing more than her
I have nothing else to say either

hhahha. ahahhahaha
ahahhahahahahhahahahahha
ahahahahahhaha i've got more filler mary, you suck
shdfhsfhdfhskdjfhshhahahahahahha
ahahahahahahahha
ahahahahhahahahahhaahhahahah
ahahahahahahahhaha
ahahahhahahahaha
ahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahah
ahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hhahahahhahahaahhahahahahahahahha

i just yelled "HEY COLON" to colin
he didnt respond
Aaron was like "did you call him colon"
hahahahahhaha
ahhahahahahah
dfsjksdjkjksdfsfhhsdfsdfjk

I HATE AARON TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooo.
He is ALWAYS annoying odnt worry abou tit

I think mary actually needs to look at the screen to type
it is quite nerdy
i maen
i am all leet and watching her
watching her screen
yes yse i am mary,
does thatmake you feel insecure
that i am type raping you.
mmmhm, well, good you suck because you suck and i dont suck and you DO suck sooo
YOU SUCK thats right, i can bold my worsd STILLL without looking.
mary has to look at the sjkdfhsdjkfhdjksfhdsfs
sdhfksdhfjkdhsjkfsfhksd

Muahahaha.

alright, there is ntohign better to do
all the people are ilke
sitting at a table and NOT on the comptuer.

we are definitiely the cool ones and just sitting here,
you know, makign it look like we have stuff to do

I wonder what krystian is doiing
Hm

I am hating jamieson

Ms Beharry isgetting the culminating
no marry, dont worry.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Boddy did totally awnt the se
not the roofies

LMFAO
I AM ACALLIGN HIM COLON LEFT RIGHT AND CENTRE
Its good.

lmfaolmfaolmfao
colin looks sooo sad
iw as like
'YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD BE BETTER...IN AN ENGLISH ACCENT
ELLO COOOOOOOOLE-ON'

beharry us vacj
sges najubg ys retyrb ti iyr seats'vty u becer keft L(

**beharry is back
she is making us return to our seats, but i never left :)

Yayayayyayayayayayayayayayyaayay
i am typign with a <3 before my typing

ohh no we are getting our culminatng now
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuxxorz

i am nervous
ahh, death amoung is
no way, you didnt iwn, how would you be wining
you need to GOP
what is that, TERRBIEL PERSON

"Any hint of plagaiarism and you will recieve a mark of zero"

ya'll know
teacher
"Called to Jesus, what did we laern"
me: We learned alot about jesus :)
teacher *Angry face

mary did not win, for the record,
shes a liar, a huge one : )
ahha, obvs she didnt win
i wish krsytian had a blog
no wait, i dont, cause his mom would find it
adn stalk it

gtg<3

2008-05-29T10:13:00.002-04:00

you will know that its warm inside
and you'll come run to me - in the cold cold night.

Alright
my entire....sanity
has become questionable

although alot has happened
it doesnt make a difference to me
or how i see things anymore
it definitely normally would
but i have seme to have given up

choked into submission beacuse

i am nto even going to bother.
its starting over
everything is.

it'll be good this time

2008-05-27T14:20:00.002-04:00

i pray that i can swim
just so i wont drown

Business class
i finished alex's book like, 20 minutse ago
it was amazing,
Psyche in a Dress.

wowowowowow (L)

hm,
i read like, four pages at lunch
then the other.....half of the book in religion
and the last half in business.

i feel SO SICK
i am going to eat an elephant when i get home
i was hoping that i could have a book to read so i could lay in my backyard tonight

haha, damnnnnnnnnnz.

OH
ME AND MARY SAW MCLOVIN' AT TIM HORTONSSSSSs

2008-05-27T09:48:00.003-04:00

i had a dream that i had to drive to madison
to deliver a painting, for some silly reason

Ayyy bay bay
history class,
we're in the hub
god damn i miss my agenda
why the fuck cant i just get that back - so that i can stop updating this damn thing
i have to go through some pretty itnense blogs apparently
so thats what i'm gonna do

i hate mr.hergott
i wouldnt mind kililng him
honestly watching him
"go to classnet, maybe you should...if you know how...if you have before"
fuck, i hate you honestly, i'd rather kill you th

ahh, alex is on classnet, so the teacher lookde over his shoulder
and then he looked
aso i had to intensely alt tab my ass out od getting charged with intent of murder

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhm
"if you are picking something for your card that doesnt seem to merit with" YO FUCK YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo.

FSDHFKJSDHFSDHFSDFSDGFSDGFSDGf
KILL HERGOTT

DDJKDSFHJKSDFHKJHFKJSDHFKJSDHFJKSDHFJKSHDJKFSDHKJFHSDJKFHSDJKFHJKSDFHJKSDHFJKSDHFJKSDHFJKSDHFJKSDHFJKHSDFJKSDH

alright, i think i'm done.
idk what im doing tonight
em and trish did some pretty abllin things

i thin i awnt to get a tanning membership

Krystians parents think i'm weidr
his mom freaked when she found out i had a lipring
if i am sketch to go swimming - death amoung me.

so i have to get a one piece bathing suit
to hide my tattoo
i will get an ugly tan
then i will get made fun of

2008-05-26T14:15:00.002-04:00

your a star; steal my car, just save me
on a roll; sell my soul, forgiveness

alright. i havent posted in FOREVER omfg.
my comptuer is so fucking stupid.

okay, saturday, i hung out with krystian!!!!
um, what did we do, i dont even know - wtf.
sldfjkdshfjksdhfjksdhfjksdhfjks
dfgjdfhgjkdfhgjkdfhjkghdfjkghdfjkghdfjkghdfjk
UM OMG WHAT DID WE DO.
okay, maybe it will come back to me.
OH!
KRYSTIAN CAME OVER!
Umm, we picked him up from work
OH AND BEFORE THAT
em and momw ent shopping!!
i MOWED THE LAWN OMG IT WAS AMAZING :)
okay,
then i got abercrombie shorts :) yay!
then krystian came
i showered,
did my hair
and me and krystian were ballin
i cancelled plans with trish, because i aws mental

OH friday night - i went to learrahs dance recital,
then i hung out with trish from 9-10
okay, saturday
then we drove krystian home, whatev

okay sunday
me and krystiannnnnnnn
ummm
Oh oh ohz ohz?!
I dont even fricken remember :(
SDJKFHDJKFHSKJFHKSDJHFJKDHSFJKSHFJKSDHFKjSDHFS
*PUNCHES HEAD

sundayyy
Oh!
okay
emeted krystian at movise!
we saw indiana jones
walked to the mall, ate, hung out
mall closed,
went to wililams,
walked tto movies
then went back to williams
we hopped three tables.
ummm, yeah it was good.
weeeeeeeeez.
weeee!
Saw domdom.
ummm.
belgian waffle andsssssssss. umm, cake :)

we went to see
What happens in vegas
it ended, we realized we had time
so i ran krystian into MADE OF HONOUR
then it ended after 20 miins
then we ran into IRON MAN

ther were like, 30 minutes'ses.

we met my mom at wililams, and drove krystian homesssssss

umm
toooooday was okays i guesseseseses.
hmmm idk okay

krystian today
then trish

2008-05-23T13:31:00.002-04:00

ayyyoooo. i'm tired of using technology
i need you right infront of meee.

SOo. business class,
i finished the test, second,
: (
only ebcause i only had onep rint out left.
and there were two reports to print.
Gwah, this class is rly easy,
anyway.
just sitting.

learrahs after school
apparently kristie kuchanaryansen is at learrahs dance

sooo i will see her tonight

LMFAO AT KRYSTIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNnn
;) HE IS SOOOOOOO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
i will sedn him an email to remind him to read this :)

i am going to her house
thent o her dance recital
at intermission, i meet her dad and sister,
apparently its britney spears vs. marilyn manson theme.
it sounds prty hawt.

i am sooooooooo sore. fawk.

i want to sleeps in my bed.
and
;) mommy said i cant sleeps over :D

haha.

er. apparently paul got a wii!

um, waht was good today

math was fun!

OH
Okay
went to bed at like, 4,
writing my history project
krsytian RETAUGHT ME all of the history WWII unit until 2am.
thx god (L)

ummm. i took the later bus
ummm. i tried to get a running start,
to slide down tables in the cafe
but my skin left me in a screeching halt. with like, rug burn :P

okay, umm, yeah,
me and connor were just watching the classes with the rude kids
(we both noticed, all of the "bad ass gangsters" are in these stupid classes where they dont have to fuckin do work.. bastards)
lawn bowling outside,
they are all so dumb.

anyway,
then in history
LOL
i was standing by the door, the WHOLE TIME
and alex didnt come!?
sooo i just stood there waiting,
the teacher is like "Any reason you arent sitting"
i was like "WE CANT START! WE ARE MISSIGN A STUDENT"

and a girl that is in his hospitality class told me he was waiting for his pizza :)

soo. i stood tehre, and once i saw him,
i DROPPED.
it was like, 10 minutes into class.
and i was by the door

i was trying to coordinate EVERYONE to scream when he came.

and i got rly nervous, and i wasnt checking the door, i was just sitting on the ground beside it
ands ummm.

oh, i realized that alex was at the door, when he went to open it
and i just SCREAMED AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS

:( no one yeleld wit me.

err. i was AMAZED to find out germany tried to take on russia - wtf!
bad teacher much!

um, we just filled out a sheet, off of a power point presentation

and i was, oH!
OH
It started!!

me *pulls out joe louis. : this is going to be messy
alex: i don't eat junk food, so you are on your own. so i cant help you
me: Hmm
alex; i can cheer yuo on thooooooooo.!??!
me: K! I WILL HAFS YAH AN OUTFIT FOR CHEERLEADING!
me *remembers when i made krystian that sexy outfit
me *is ripping paper REALLY lOUDLY
*20 minutes go by, everyone winds up looking back
*teacher doesnt say anything
*i make a bikini top, and i wanted to make a skirt, but realized everyone would be looking at his junk unless i made like, undies to go on under, so i made a three piece.
me *gives it to alex
me: i think it would be more effective if i had a mannequin
*makes a mannequin body
*uses the skirt by accident to amke upper torso
*realizes i dont have legs ont he mannequin, so you cant tell wha tth eundies are for
*realizes it'll look dumb without a head
*CRUMPLES FULL SHEET TO MAKE A HEAD
*uses a sheet of paper, cuts length wise like, four tiems to make arms, and legs
alex made a pretzel heart?
and wahtev,
then everyone was checking its aerodynamics :(

anyway, it was a paper version of alex
*i just randomly decided to sit up straight, it hurts :(

ummmmmmmmmmmmm.
yaah
lunch,
was fun, me and mary went to tim hortons
then i went to macs, bought a popsicle
mary called home,
i gave mary half of my popsicle
creepy old man was like "HAY! CAN I HAVE HALF"
i was in shock :P
evan keller (<3) was watching me. ahh
so i wa slike
"Surely you can afford your own popsicle"
old man: they are my favourite!! Noo, i work for a living
me: ......meeee toooooo

haha, amry left, and i went abck to school
there wa slike
10 minutes left of lunch
so i visisted tyrone!

i went in his class, he todl me i could eat the peoples ravioli
hes like "Hmm, who is the best cook - okay, you can eat his!!"

soo he went over to the comptuesr
and i followed him

me: mary went home, so im all alone
tyrone: is that right?
me: haha yeah,
me: i think im gonan take grade 11 hospitality, i didnt pick it yet, but i think i will, just because of alex, in yuor first period
tyrone: hmm. hes a nice kid, hes VERY intelligent. Why?
me: haha, yeah, he's the funniest guy i've ever met!
tyrone: hmm, yeah, hes VERY quite. Most people wouldnt bother spendign time to know him well enough to know how he is.

*tyrone is like, going ON AND ONNNN about alex

tyrone says something *looks back at two grade elevens
me *laughs awkwardly
tyrone *talkign to the grade 11's: You guys dont laugh, erica thinks im funny
me: mmmhm.
tyrone: Its cause i pay her
me: ....Yeah, he pays welll...... JUST TO TALK TO THO :
girl *GIVES ME HUGE DIRTY LOOK
tyrone: just to takl to.. not anything you were thinking of *what ever that girls name issss

i was like, omfg. *angryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
soo i left.
then i was Rly quite for religion
me and jamieson had good times
colin AND leo said they didntdidntdidntdidnt steal my shit.

they did
Sooooo. jamieson stole my shit back! : ) Yay

Ew, vicky is on
www.hollisterco.ca

LOL the guy on the main page
is SO GROSS
he is just ilke, topless
laying down
flexing
and hes not even wearing the shirt, its just around his neck

omg.
haha umm

im waiting for facebook to load, its making me rly mad.

LMAO
"thats why you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch kids - and buy extra larges - Story of my life"
LMFAO
THAT
WAS
SOOO GOOD.
AHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

They dont know thoo.
soo i am ya

DANCE RECITAL
this class will NOT FUCKIGN END
WTFFFFFFFFf

and i dont havemy friggen ipod
i miss my life.
haha.

yoo. *note to self
go on ae website to find a one piece bathing suit

Hmmm.
Fuck
i cant wait to get home
i should email my parents
to be ilke "HAY DONT LET ME SLEEP OVERTONIGHT"

FUCK IT WOTN WORKKKKKKKKKS.
Omg. okay
i will text trish via hotmail.
and be like "CALL Y PARENTS, TELL THEM THAT I DONT WANT TO SLEEP OVER, BUT I WILL ASK TO AND I AWNT HER TO SAY NOOOOOOOO"

2008-05-22T13:30:00.005-04:00

i dont have any music playing

or ignorantly stuck in my head.

i have homework to do

almost an hour until school is over, it hink!

hmmmm, *is waiting for the blogger draft saver to update

2008-05-22T13:30:00.004-04:00

i dont have any music playing
or ignorantly stuck in my head.

i have homework to do
almost an hour until school is over, it hink!
hmmmm, *is waiting for the blogger draft saver to update
haha, yeah, okay its good, 1:32.
alright, i gotta work on my history project
god damn i wish i had music.

2008-05-21T14:11:00.003-04:00

i'mma make, make it hot.

alright.

business.

i am biored

therse like

15 minutes left

i finished evrything

and done the review

umm,r eligion was pretty good, not too bad i guess.

umm, math class, test tomorrow!!

Umm, history, test today

it was good

and "The door exploded" in history

i laughed so hard

AND SOME NERDY BOY WA SLIKE ":O (L)!!!!!!!!"
love at first sight, i saw it, i felt it!

mary even saw it ^_^

haha.

ummmmm,

*lifts up shirt*

nicolaidis is teh berries, noo lie i have never laughed so hard.

i am trying to watch gossip girlllllll

2008-05-20T22:10:00.002-04:00

under the covers theres more torture than pleasure,
and just past your lips, theres more anger than laughter.

sensei ekra says (10:13 PM):
you know when someone makes an inside joke, and you pretend you know
sensei ekra says (10:13 PM):
your lik e"HAHAA-haaaa.... yeah;)"
Krystian says (10:13 PM):
yes
sensei ekra says (10:13 PM):
that is how you talk about sex, before you do it.
Krystian says (10:13 PM):
DAMNIT
Krystian says (10:13 PM):
YOUR TOTALLY RIGHT

i love life.

anyways,

my life is upside down.
i feel a downward spiral - complete turmoil.
i've got no motivation.
i've got no one to impress.

i don't want responsibility
but i want a mission.

hmmm. the weekend was really good
krystian on saturdya, at his house
krystian on sunday at mine,
i didnt go t

waiiiiiit, i lied?
....sunday at his
monday at mine :P

and saturday at mine ;)

anyway.
yah.

sjkdfhjkdshfjkdshfjkdshfjkdshfjkdshfjkdshfjkhdsjfkdshfjkdshjkfhdsf
fucking brent.

2008-05-18T17:24:00.004-04:00

Her shoes straight was hooker
don't play, i cook it what's shakin' suga.

alright, post today is brought to you by
KRYSTIAN's LAPTOP

^_^

I played call of duty today
i am pretty pumped - YUHHH.
14? kills... i think and three assists :)

Mmmh, i havent posted this weekend yet
my computer is really dumb,
err.
Friday was alot of fun
i remember i wanted to repost with what i did that night
but i forgot now :(
i remember me and trish went out
and she fixed
THATS WHAT HAPPEND!
umm, I mrememebrrrr. idk!!!
Umm, okay soooo.
me and trish were going to go out for dinner
and i was going to go with her to tan

but she lleft without me
so i met her there
then me and her went to pita factory
(L) and mary browns
AND I SAW JOEL OMFGGGGGGG

I was soo happpppppyyy
:)
He givededs me a piece of gummm.

^_^
Err. what else
i rbought daddy his schtuff.
and me and her hung out

we prly went to the park.

then.. yeah, we saw marvin and went to tim hortons

(L)

Then we wents home
whatev else
:O IFiXED MY BLACK JEANSS
FTWWWWWWWWWWw

Okay, and yesterday!!
i went shopping
andnsndsdshdkshdkjsh umm,
me and mommy went out for williams and cake and schtuufff

i am wiss krystian
best time of my life
other than having to eat a zillionf pounds of food
nd i want to check marys blog for updates
i wonder how ottawa is
I WANT A CUTE BABY

*asks krystian for a cute baby :)

hahah
(L)

2008-05-16T14:18:00.002-04:00

i know i've been selfish, i know i've been foolish
but look through that, and you will see that i can do better

alright.
school is almost over.
andrea is very hilarious and whiney
i cant wait to see krystian
"NIEEEEE TAH BOWLEEE, TO BOLI!"
ahhaha.
(L)
hooojeeeeeeeeek.

anyway,
i love trish
i msis her
MCDONALDS TONIGHT
FO' SHOOOOOOO
I NEED LOTS OF FASTFOOD
Uh oh,
we talked about that in business
liek, no one, beside me, eats fastfood like VEERYDYA

You know what.
i want pita factory

i am going to spend my huge like, vat of money
that i was savign for this, and next weekend.

Blahhhh

I LOVE TRISH

2008-05-16T13:23:00.005-04:00

you're all that i hope to find,
in every single way

Andrea is sick.
she is very... sensitive right now
andrea: *CRIES* I AM NOTTT SENSITIVEEEE
hahaha
anyways,
good day today.
i get to see krystian ^_^

andrea is crying.
she wants me to ehlp her
Andrea *reads my computer: I am not crying! Why am i crying! ericaaa why am i crying

anyway,
i scared alex ^_^
and i pwn'd jamieson

i must tell krystian everything today!
i took notes on all the funny things that happens o i wont forget
^_^

Aiiiight, gatta goooo

EDIT: Natalie just almost got super pwn'd
she was like
"SHES PRETTY - FOR A CHUNKY GIRL"

me and andrea almost raped her ass.
but thens hes like
"She was "chunkier" than all the OTHER anorexic girls"

...skinny polski fucker

EDIT: anorexic polski fucker

2008-05-15T13:25:00.005-04:00

drop everything, start it all over. remember more than you'd like to forget.
would you like to forget?

mmh, alright, didnt post yesterday.
yseterday, a guy came to 101 for hsitory class
and he showed us his wwii collection.
hmmmm,
it was pretty good. i decided i want a WWII Nazi Jacket
(L)

haha.
um, nothign much else.
i started watching th emovie 300 on connors mp4 player.
its so good. wowza.
ig ot the first 20 minutse in,
then today again i awtched into 40:21

fawk its soo hawt.

mmmh, last night
i visited krystian.

me *talks LOUDLY on bus: i cant awit for ALONE time with krystian
me *stands at 12 bus stop
*david walks up.
me: it hink im gonna take the 22.

*sitting on the 22, i realize that i dont want to atke it
*goes on the 12.
*davids not there
*david gets on the 12
and david stalked me and krystian :(

mmmh,
today learrah told me that david got on the 22
"wheres erica"
the bus was leaving highland,
he got the bus to stop, to let him off..

Okay, so i feel bad
me and andrea got ahead in business class
and teachers going over everything.
I dont really care
i copied down the note (which i didnt want to do)
so once he stopped writing, i walked up and got onto the computer
so i've been on for like, ten minutes while taecher is teaching
rofl.

today in religion
was funny.
i talk later about it.

i haev dashes all over.
i tell you later.

2008-05-13T20:26:00.002-04:00

spend all your time
waiting for that second chance

alright. so i am excited
well, not entirely.
Apparently no wonderland this sunday
(good thing, ftl :O)

um.
okay, so st.pauls babies
today was adorable.
the track and field kids were there
and there was this fat gangster that i never saw before
that was like
bullying darian - bastard!

mmmmh,
learrahs little sister was cute.
marys little sister was cute.
craig, johnathan, kevin and matt.
Siq for all them. that was cute.

Anyway,
me and trish hung out, good times.
coffee - tea, noo cheerios

mic for krstian and made lots of stuff with
um, whats that stuff?
mmmmmmmmmmmn..
Paper, cardboard paper?
ummm.
Construction Paper :)
Clothes and such.
good times.

i applied at mcdonalds
after seeing jesse and his gf ^_^
umm,w hat else,
that bitch :( works there too :(
Lots of annoying bitchy people work there.
/is scared.

I want to get relocated, but not far :(

Krystian comes home soon :)
*is soo happy

I have two essays due this week
history one due, AW FUCK, TODAYS TUESDAY.
brb
*signs in and out asking for people in my history class

definitely didnt.
david alvarez always uses me for history informtion.

sensei ekra says (8:34 PM):
Ah! is the history essay due tomorrow?
[ : - Dave - : ](L)I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MINA.(L) I LOVE YOU with all my heart(L)remember I'll allways be true(L)(K) says (8:34 PM):
no way mate!!! hell no
sensei ekra says (8:34 PM):
Ahah! thank god.
sensei ekra says (8:34 PM):
thursday then?
[ : - Dave - : ](L)I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MINA.(L) I LOVE YOU with all my heart(L)remember I'll allways be true(L)(K) says (8:34 PM):
he hasnt told us the date yet:P I think he hasnt
[ : - Dave - : ](L)I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MINA.(L) I LOVE YOU with all my heart(L)remember I'll allways be true(L)(K) says (8:35 PM):
but its definatly not this week
sensei ekra says (8:35 PM):
THANK GOD.!
sensei ekra says (8:35 PM):
Thank you ^_^
[ : - Dave - : ](L)I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MINA.(L) I LOVE YOU with all my heart(L)remember I'll allways be true(L)(K) says (8:35 PM):
no problem, our religion IS due this week though
[ : - Dave - : ](L)I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MINA.(L) I LOVE YOU with all my heart(L)remember I'll allways be true(L)(K) says (8:35 PM):
and so is the math project
sensei ekra says (8:35 PM):
Omg. lmao you r in all those classes of mine.
my group finished the project, in math last week. and the lreligion, i am pumped to do

This is hilarious
i forgot abiout rleigion
i was going to do all this different stuff,
but i've settled on Helen Keller,
Person of Good Character.

I think i personally would've chosen William Shakespeare.

me and david are talking ALOT more than i expected.

mary called a few minutes ago.
she got back from horse back riding :)

i wonder if she will think less of me if i work at mcdonalds.

fawk i eat mcd's soo much.

I rlle want to work drive thru.
that'd be the funniest thing ever, i think.

I always hate noobs tho
that get my order wrong :(
soo i am vry worried

listening to sarah mclachlan somehow makes me think
that i am entitiled to singing along.
definitely not.
note to self.

MMmmhhggg.
thje more i type, the more i realize iits closer for krystian to come home.

sooo. i shall go do something ^_^
brb.

siq that took up four minutes.
i am going to do laundry
brb again :)

haha that took another five minutes.
i am planning on trying to revamp my other jeans
but, practising my hemming VERY LOW
so that i dont turn out with really fucking stupid
and awkward cut jeans(thanks trish)

Mmmmmnh.

2008-05-13T14:20:00.001-04:00

in the arms of an angel

Alright, didnt post yseterday
ummms, idk what happened?
i am trying to think soo hard.
oh
i went with trish to go tanning
we went to mcdonalds
and tim hortons
hmmm,

erica ate lunch today
beacuse mary bought it for her.
but now erica has to dig into the safe,
or be lik e"DAD CAN I HAVE MONEY FOR DINNER"
then not eat diner and pay mary back. lmao

umm, today
LITTLE BABISE
Aweee. the st. pauls babies came to track and field.
was definitely adorable.
i am a pimp for the little babies lmfao
akrughtt, i gotta go

2008-05-11T18:05:00.004-04:00

we get lost, but i don't care. he gives me a frustrated stare
i've never seen him look so good.

alright, today was good:)
woke up a few times
umm, yah
made breakfast at like, 11.
dad dropped me off at fg at 12:45:)
i bought a coffee (1.50) at coffee time
only had a 20$ bill... hahaha
anyway, he gets there, i didnt even drink the coffee,
i just thre it out.
his parents drive us to sunrise :)
umm,
we hung out, went eveywhere
saw marcelo :)
umm, whatelse.

we tested out beds, checked out stoves
dishes, vases, clothes,
coffee :)
chocolate.

walmart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha, best day ever.
krystian bought me a gloworm :D(L)

move over buildabears.
lmao.
i have yet to name it.

yesterday was so fun.

ummm, ya
mothers day,
my moms lik e"you arent leaving.."
so me, drunk dad and bart pick up krystianf rom work.
dad embarasses me so much.

umm, polish great grandparents have a field day with polak krystian.
ya : )

i love krystian (adrian) julian (george) krasnopolski.

2008-05-10T08:50:00.004-04:00

one life, nine hearts
eighteen hands that will rip you apart

ok so i didn't post yesterday
i was going to, in the morningm, but i didnt
i knew, in themornign that i'd skip.
so i went home after history class
took the bus with best friend adam
got home, showered, did hair
finally left,
bussed to smh
a boy was telling me about his job ^_^

umm,
then i was at trisheslocker for like, 20 minutes.
writing her a note,
and people being like
"Who the fuck is at trishes lcoker"
it was weird :O :O :O lmao

umm,
me and trish amde it look like we were booking it to go love domdom
and waited for ksytian where he couldnt see us
he looked SOOOOOOOOOOOO SADDDDDDDDDDDD
teh aweee. / . _ . \

k, soos we walked to fg.
umm, trish was proud that she made krystian laugh :)
haha imitating josh.
she got mad that we had to wait for krystian
we went to shoppers
she went to the bank.
i bought ice cbreakers and adorable lemonade :) (L)(L)
i am still drinking it now. lmao

soooooooooooooz
oh, in math i talked to connor about his fishies
he drew me a map of where to get them at walmart
he said they were 28 cents each
i am scared they will be ugly.
but i still want like, a million of them!! :) (L)

umm, ok
alex, in history explained the movie "Teeth" to me
he said i'd never see vaginas the same way after i heard it. lmao
it was funny

ok umm.
me and trish went back home.
we went to get her hair cut,
the pharmaplus for hair dye
then pita factory

SO MANY PEOPLE WERE STARING
and i bitched a dfew mexicans out
THEN ALL THE PEOPLE INTHEIR CARS
we flipped off a good amount of them.

(AH! I ACCIDENTALLY CLOSED IT,
AND ALMOST STARTED REWRITING IT
THEN I REALIZED THERE ARE AUTO DRAFTS
FTWWWWWWWWWWWWWW)

ok, anyway
i am listening to slipknot agian, I LOVE MY LIFE.

trish bought hairdye,
brownand blonde

so las tnight
after we played monoply
trish dyed her hair
she fucked it up big time
so at three,
today i am going to fix her hair
then for five, i am going to hang uot with krystian:)
buy sum fishies, you know.

tomorrows mothersday
krystians gonna have a fit when he realized he hasnt boughten his moma present yet.

FUCK I HAVE TO BUY ALL THRE EGENERATIONS A GIFT. LMAO

2008-05-08T13:57:00.002-04:00

another sun soaked season
..fades away

alright. in business.
hoojeek is lookign on my computer screen.
its alright though, she doesnt know ic an see her - until i write that i can see her loking.
Today was pretty boring (can you beileve it natalie!!)
My math test was TERRIBLE
how was yours hoojeek
did you fail?
me too :(
yeah, it was rpetty balls
the warm up, was like, #2..
was the WHOLE BACK SIDE OF THE QUIZ
i was ike "WTF I FORGET HOW TO DO IT"
me and connor were texting back and forth on his calculator
it has the "ALPHA" function
and we kept talking.

hesl ike "I AM SOOO DEAD"
i was ilke "Woah! me too"
hes like "Do you have a gun for me to shoot myself?!"
me: Yeah, but its at the cleaners, Mr. Braun got his brains all over it.
hahaha. good times ^_^

business class is SO BORING
we're doing access.
and its SO EASY
and i am ilke, on facebook and blogger doing this
its so borrrrring gawd daaaaaaaaaaamnz.

anyway, how are you hoojeek?
i can see you are still very interested
its like, once every five minutes that i actually have to do soemthing

"CLICK IT - WHEN YUO CILCK IT, IT BRINGS UP A WINDOW"
ye, i see that. thx.

Ok, so i am going to return to class. i guess
no, i'll keep this open, i'm really bored. fawk
"listen carefully please"

mmh, eeaaasy

THIS IS FUCKING BORING OH MY GOD

I am like, lip syncing every song.
its good

2008-05-07T17:44:00.002-04:00

like the prodigal son, i was out on my own
i've done a lot of things wrong, but i swear i'm a believer

aiight, visiting krystian was teh fun
i wrote like, a four paged note, front and back
and had two extra pages
i realized he wanted me to get him poetry or something
so i wrote like, a douchey poem a page long on the one extra page
then on the second page i wrore like 'LMFAO THAT WAW JOKES'
but when i gave it to him, i told him it was ALL POETRY

but its not ^.^
mmmh.
it was SO FUNNY
me and david were leaving technotrade
me: *rRUNS FOR BUS*DAVID! WE GOTTA GET THAT BUS
*looks back, david is far back
me: DAVID! RUN WTF
me *stops running
david: GO! GO ON WITHOUT ME
me: NO! I WONT GO WITHOUT YOU! LEAVE NO MAN BEHIND
david: GO! I CAN WAIT FIFTEEN MINUTES FOR THE NEXT ONE

i have never laughed so hard in my life

i saw trish, when she was getting on the bus for werk
mmmmmh, nothign else much
dad ate my dinner today
so he made me yummy stuff
i want to read my book
btu i am reluctant, as per usual.

i want to go sleep
i think i jus tmight

2008-05-07T11:32:00.002-04:00

when you mentioned dry
all i thought was sober

Aiight, its lunch time
i was DYING of hunger this mronign
gross sandwhich for lunch
so OBVIOUSLY i threw it out.
mmmmh,
i am fucking hugnry as shit.
mmmh
learrah gave me $2 and asian flaked out when i asked him for money
bastard.
anyawsy
i wil spend the money when i am out with krystian
(not telling him i havent eaten all day - or i may compromise him triyng to feed me with his money! lmao)

and buy somethign then
my ipod wont be recognized my computers.
its fuckign stupid.
oh! ahaha
yeah whatev.

so i am less hungry.
i did my religion assignment that was due two days ago earlier
on an axe advertisement i found by accident.
hmmm.
i could eat a fucking mule right now.
the guy beside me is reading boxing forums
"your three favourite fighters of all time?"
the guy isnt posting, but he's reading.. intently

before it was like "THE THREE HARDEST PUNCHES OF ALL TIME"
it was funny
i feel bad for reading his screen.
mehs
so.
i really want to like, die,
its OMG
OMG LUNCH IS ALMOST OVER! TEH WEWT WEWT

Krystie Sewn :) (L)

EDIT: OMG MY PRINT BALANCE IS DOWN TO 31.

2008-05-07T07:07:00.004-04:00

even when there's no one there for you
march onnnnnnnnnnn.

MMmhh, sketchy i didnt post yesterday
it was an overall bad day
andi cant mention the secret thats ripping my life apart
fuck i am hungry. thats about it

trish is a bitch, and never trusts me
she is a fucking whore. i swear
i hate her >: (
i have one poof of hair i cant straightn out, and my life is over.

yesterday i got to see krystian
and i believe i get to see him again today ^_^
hmm,

me and jamieson got in afight
my history teacher is a dick - atleast alex is funny about it
mmmmh
i refuse to do religion homework assignments
and business is the only class where i actually get shit done
and thats ebcause its on my own tme
he just gives us assignments, and we finish them by a certain day
after that day, we move to another program
its good.
FUCK YES TURING SOON :)
*IS SO EXCITEDDDDDDD*
i swear. computers are my life.

so.
"compare people" on facebook
is my life
and i got like "VOTED THIS BETTER THAN __________"
and i usually facebook those people
check the mututal friends list
and process of elimination everyone out down to who said it

i'm pretty sure every one of them this round was krystian
lmfao.

Hmmm. soooo

that is pretty much it.
OH and i have to get krystian those lyrics things.
i will do that for when i see you after school tonight.
lmfao i'll have swatches ready for you.

off to die. (PS I THINK I USED THAT TITLE BEFORE)

EDIT: oh yeah, lunch yesterday! ahha
six people, most lots of tension
fun.

2008-05-05T15:47:00.002-04:00

we can't go back, it won't be the same
forever changed, by the things we've seen

So, today was ish, i wrote trish a HUGE note
mmmmmmh, didnt hang in religion project due today
and i havent started writing my prayer for tomrorow
mmmmh, what else
idk
so, me and trish are going to go running soon
shes coming over
we're gonna eat here,
probbaly start running right after
come back here, stretch it outttt
do some low intensity exercises, etc.

/is pumped

we just finished eating dinner.

we're gonna take pictures first

2008-05-04T16:39:00.002-04:00

until we see the run
march on

Alright, so i'm pretty pumped.
yesterday was actually very fun with learrah
ahh.
"HAUHH LIEE HAUH CUHLUH" (hot like hot curler)
we watched like, five big brother episodes on pvr
then we watchedall the episodes of ANTM except for the one from last week
(ran out of time)
ate pizza.
i got home, showered
did hair
did lots
krystians going to come over later tonight
so i am going to read for a bit, try to warm up, etc.
rpost ltrs

2008-05-03T08:54:00.002-04:00

she don't wanna talk about it, he wants to fight about,
I don't wanna fight about it,

mmh, mary is asleep
and i am on the laptop
just chillin,
we watched juno last night. good times
hmm, nothing else much
i felt sick
im a bit better nows ^_^

learrahs in a little bit
mmrrrrnnhhh
i am fucking hungry
i have a lunchable in my bag frm yesterday
i think im gonna eat it,
like, go into the kitchen, ahahah.
anyway

talked to brent a bit
its like, official, official
i was sketchy, until that, today.
i wonder how its going to turn out. i really do.
ahah, my hair is still curly
WHENEVER I AM AT MARYS HOUSE,
AND I SLEEP
AND I LOOK IN THE MIRROR
MY FACE IS LIKE! WHITEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I SWEAR
its scarey!
anyway
krysties in the shower
*tries to hurry him using telepathy*
AWE SHIT
HE IS GOING TO WORK AFTER TOO
AWe GAD DAAAAAAAAAMN
I just wanted him home till ten :(
fml, close enough, i guess.
MMmh, he is a pretty baby :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adCCgXthH9k&feature=related
A) benji looks like he has a hitler hairdo
B) that stage is REALLY small

lmao at that,
bobby: MARY
me: SHHH
bobby: Oh, Erica! Whats Good
me: nothing
bobby: AHAHH I AM SOOO DRUNK STILL

good to know, bobby :)

Hmm, i am dreading each minute passing,
gahzzhzhzfjdhsjfhdjshfjhdsfjhsdjkfsd
mom is up, and showering
so that means she will probably drive me home soon
i have to do touch ups to the curls in my hair
learrah will get mad at me for not having it straight
hmm

my wrists hurt like a mathaaa faaaaaaaaaaka.
hm,
will post, probably not tonight
but tomorrow when i get home
(i will tell my parents to pick me up at like, 11! haha)

2008-05-02T21:29:00.003-04:00

i won't let this build up inside of me
no i won't let this build up inside of me

aight, so today was kind of cool, not really.
this morning was a test in math!
mmh, it wasnt bad
alex was hilarious.
we voted. and annoying people won.
lunch was ish,
religion was dumb
business was dumb.

i went straight to marys house, and she talked me tino sleeping over
so i went home, showered
curled my hair
we went to superstore,
saw some homeskillets.

idk. overall good day
we were supposed to call some guy
about his gold shaggin wagon.

ahhaa, not yet.

we're watching juno
and im about to start mad bauling
i miss krystian to the extreme.

2008-05-01T23:03:00.003-04:00

this'll be the first time in a week
that i'll talk to you - and i can't speak
(it's been three whole days since i've had sleep
'cause i've dreamed of his lips on your chek
and i got the point that i should leave you alone
but we both know that i'm not that strong
i miss the lips that make me fly)

I have been reluctant to post today
blog doesnt seem appealing - not today
today was hectic.
i was really sad and dpressed this morning
math class was actually fun. - competition
and in history, i used alex's sweater as a pillow :)
POLLLEEE-AUUNHD.
and wrote all over his shoe
his hair is really fxckin soft
um, co-prez election speeches
they were bad
mmh, lunch was fun
me and mary were late for religion
religion clas is fucking stupid
fuck, i just realized i have a religion test tomorrow.
and a math test
hmm.
business was ish.
i learned alot tonight
and me and trish went to mcdonalds
i slept,
me and learrah tlaked on the phone
me and krystian talked some shit through
domdom is mah home sizzle (yus krystie)
and. yeah. done.

EDIT: Sorry about the huge long lyrics title, i got carried away.

2008-04-30T11:10:00.004-04:00

i'm gonna make damn sure, that you can't ever leave.
no you won't ever get to far from me, you won't ever get too far from me.

ok. so it's lunch time.
i cant find mary, but i guess thats sort of good right now.
i feel like i am giong to fall asleep when i walk thruogh the halls
i feel so shitty
so tired and sad.
i cant eat, i feel nautious
but i've got no energy.

i cant sleep.
i want to go to class.
i just want to fucking get this day over with.
i am so cold, and so tired.
mmh
i just want to be alone, permanently.

right now, feels so nice.
alone, surrounded with strangers.
no one i need to impress, or anyone i've got to perk up for.
i feel so chilled.

MMMMH,
me and alex in history class were talking about
how eh was going to get a hair cut
i was lik e"haha yeah right"
ebcause justin said about how he always lies about hair cuts.
i drew a picture of alex getting his hair cut
by a guy with a mohawk.
and a picture of me with a bazooka
"I WILL SAVE YOU"
and now he has a fucking mohawk.
stupid fucker.

2008-04-29T15:09:00.002-04:00

and i'd whisper that i love you
as you fall out of your clothes

today was kind of bad.
the morning, was kind of good actually.
i learned alot in math class (finally)
and, oh, earlier,
finally krystian was on msn as early as i am :)
surprisingly enough, it wasnt full of as much conversation until seven
and, then i left ina rush because there wasnt enough time to finish what we were talking baout.
fml :P
so anyway,
history class was good
we watched this movie, hmmm
"swing boys" about rebellious germans during hitlers time
and it was showng their HJ? uniforms
and it showed uniform black boots
the uniform dark green knee highs
then dark blue shorts
and i yelled out "IT LOOKS LIKE REZ"
and my teacher was all mad and appalled.

anyway, lunch, was by myself.
my bagel order got lost, so i had to wait forlike, ten minutes in line
that wasnt bad, though. i had to waste time.
a teacher tried to get me in trouble for being upstairs during lunch
and i juust looked at her, and kept walking
she like, shit her pants.

so, religion class, wasnt bad at first.
jamieson sat beside me, meh.
we watched this sex movie, and after it was done jamie had to leave to do something for a teacher
so then im sitting by myself
my teacher proposes "does anyone know people, in real life in abusive relationships
and i was the only one to raise my hand.
the teacher brings a point about how she knew a story about a girl who almost got raped, but knew karate so she was chill.
then she calls on me.
"So, Erica.."
me: What, you want me to tell?
teacher: Yes..
me: um, in that case, no i don't know any
teacher: well. you dont have to name names.
* mary winds up distracting teacher and the subject is changed
teacher comes back to me and i give her a mere instance of my own
slightly altered.
anyway, the tsheet also said "DATE RAPE" in big bold letters
jamieson comes back, gets a sheet from the front of the class
and sits beside me.
i had my dhead on the desk
and i was already hyperventilating
i had a couple papers all over my desk,
and without looking up, i write "we're talking about rape jamieson, im gonna baul my eyes out"
i was as quiet as possible, while the teacher is reading the stats
it was written in paragraph form, with stats intertwined
and the teacher would stop, and give her own opinions
"it is suspected only 1% of this type of rape is reported. Why do you think that?"
shes asking people. and people are answering with "i think"
i was SCREAMING in my head "I KNOW..I KNOW!"
i started slowly crying, quietly, but i could feel my back spasming, shoulders collapsing in and out quickly
jamieson rubbed my back, every couple of minutes, quickly - awkwardly.
i felt so bad.
i didnt want to go outside of the clas.s
but i knew it was what i should do.
i sat there, and as the teacher kept reading
"victims of sexual assault are much more likely to report the crime to the police when it is perpetrated by a stranger than when it is committed by an acquaintance, friend, or partnet"
"date rape foes not fit the stranger-in-the-dark-alley stereotype"

and continued with Physical Abuse
"Dating violence is sometimes viewed by one or both partners as an indication of love, especially when it is perceived asa sign of jealousy. However assault is about power, not passion"

it felt like the class just wouldnt end.
i wouldnt raise my head,
but i wouldnt dare make a noise.
this would be far to embarassing.

i felt bad for jamieson.
i still do.

the class ended, and people obviously saw me, but they left me alone.
i'd like to thank all of them for that.
but i wouldnt.
that'd be too embarassing, as well.

i wrote on the paper
"How much time left in class"
i was worried how jamieson would answer.
i held the pen in my hand, comfortably, but loosely,
so jamieson could take it out of my hand.
i held it with the tips of my hands, so if he took the pen,
he wouldnt feel the sweat that transfered from my palms.

he said it quietly outloud, "seven minutes"

i sat there,
thinking, if i stopped crying, that i could clear up by the end of class,
i could act normal.
no one had noticed?

the teacher told people they could pack up
mary came to the back
rubbing my back too.
i stood up, and went to the window at my side
me and mary just stood there talking.

me and mary went to my class, and i wrote
"ERICA IS UPSET AND GOING TO THE WASHROOM TO CRY
WILL BE BACK ASAP"

vicky missy and andrea looked at my face and asked me what was wrong.
i didnt answer, just left
we went to the washroom, and i eased up a bit
i got into class, and it was chill.
thank god no one made a huge deal.

class was fun, we're in powerpoint now.
mmh, tonight'll be bad i think

2008-04-28T14:07:00.003-04:00

you see everything, every part of me.
you see my light, and you love my dark.

in business,
we got moved aroudn in religion class, i sit in the back by myself
jamieson sits like, infront of me.
bastard.
anyways.
today was kidn of boring.
math teacher is so nice.
is hould be doing homeowkr except i don't roll that way
i've got almost 40 minutse today to do nothingi n business
cause i finished.
io SHOULD really do the math homework.
fuck!
Umms
hoojeek is watching me
nope she looked away.

People underestimate my peripheral vision
ahahahamuahahahha
anyways,
yeah, lunch wth mary
fun times were had.
i am not sure what is up tonight.
probably, awe fuck no running, its raining. i will bring home my shit tomorrow i guess
krystian and trish both have work, but it hink trish is bringing me home an application for her work! yay!!

Hm. nothing else, i guess i will sleep, do homework, yuh know.
krystie better clal me to wake me up tonight.

erica really awnts to play more COD4.
I have been bragging alld ay about my nine kills.
i kind of want to bring up that score!
mary finally made me realize
"Nine kills in five hours? thatsl ike, one point five kills an hour! i'm proud"
haha.

friday and saturday were so much fun :)!
Ily krystie

OH
I told hoojeek and spiewak about meeting krsytians parents.
my teacher is all creepy and perverted
"WHO IS HE, DOES HE GO HERE. WHY NOT?! I WANT HIMT O PLAY FOOTBALL! IF HE CAN HANDLE YOU, HE CAN HANDLE THE DIV. A TEAMS!"
lmfao creepy!

2008-04-27T22:04:00.004-04:00

making love with you, has left me peaceful warm inside
what more could I ask, there's nothing left to be desired

So, today was pretty tense.
i cleaned my room.
still not done, but it was for moving purposes.
recovered alot of lost clothing.
grandmother came over. good times!
finally. she was funny, and nice, and chill.
me and trish hung out, HUGE heart to heart.
nothing much else
watched grease with my parents, good times again.

mmh, brent wants to come down for a visit, may 10th.
i'll see how that works out.
he's been saying he'll see me for years.
i dont hold his word to tightly anymore.

i really love krystian.
whole-heartedly.
i can't think of a situation that would ever, ever, ever change that.

2008-04-27T12:43:00.004-04:00

all your friends say that your gone
but i swear, i swear i'm not

I am kind of paranoid that i already used that quote ^

anyway, mary reminded me to update blog by complaining about the chatbox
ftw.
first off.
me and krystian hung out last night, with dominique (^_^ i do myself justice by calling him that)
and i popped my xbox 360 cherry.
it was pretty ballin'
well.
friday, i played that skate. game, and pwn'd krystian with luging.
but that didn't count.
i played call of duty for a few hours (the entire time i was there)
and i finished with a total of nine kills, ftw-fng ;D
i walk around with my aim down :(
And!! at first, people were like "OMFGS ITS A GIRL" on xboxlive.
it was really funny
"Hey! You, Krygy, You sound like you have a vagina ;)"
Mmmh.
dom thinks that dirk nowitski is an ogre. fml.

I GOT CALLEDA LITTLE BOY! AND PEOPLE TOLD ME TO SHUT UP! LMFAO
And!! Some little kid made fun of me because i only had one kill :(
Peoples are sewws mean!!

k, so when i realized i had to call home, we tried to use the phone,
and it didn't work
"maybe you can only call out on this phone - i feel noob"
and realized the phone upstairs was off the hook all night.
and krystian broke the banister. hahahahahahahha :D
"how was the banister sex"

I slept in till 11 this morning, that was good.
watched some family-friendly Soprano's with my dad (good times)
and watched that "I KNOW MY KID IS A STAR" with danny bona-douchey
idk.
um,yeah, and then my dad left and me and my mom watched hannah montana
i never realized how much i hate her. fawk. (hannah)

Whats up with that frank? why you gotta play a brother like that?
UPDATE POST SECRET YOU INCONSIDERATE ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!
lmfao
XD imagine all those people that have posts like
"WE TURN OFF OUR FIREWALL EVERYWEKK TO LOOK AT YOUR PS FROM WORK"
"I AM JEALOUS OF FRANK, HE GETS TO SEE ALL THE POST CARDS"

wah! they will all kill themselves!@ Bastard!

i just checked my blog for the name - its a differnet part in the song, so i guess its okay.

OH! On like, april 16, i said "I HAVE TO MEET KRYSTIANS PARENTS IN TEN DAYS"
then he was like "NO!! THE RECITAL IS ON A DIFFERENT DAY!"
and i didnt repost "ITS ON A DIFF DAY" buts yea
then i couldnt go (God DOES answer prayers!)
yea, krystians like "YOU DONT HAVE TO MEET THEM IN TEN DAYS"
but then, i wound up meeting them nine days later! gwahahaha.

Erm.
Trish came over this morning for a headband, and i told her about my night.
^_^
Mmmh. i love her :)
we're going for whoppers tonight
i lvoe coupons :)
OR! Icecream.
Hmm, not sure yet!! ;D
i have to get cleaning today.
so i think thats what im gonna do once i finish my outstanding jetman challenges. ^_^
then i might hit up some super-snake.
not sure yet!!!